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57 lines
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# Prayers
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- [x] Mass
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- [ ] Evening Rosary (w. mysteries)
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# Studies
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- [ ] 1 hr Catechism
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- [x] 1 hr Civil Eng
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- [x] 1 hr Agricultural Study
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- [x] 2hr Woodwork
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# Did you eat well?
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- 1200 cal
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# Tasks
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- [ ] Set up tomorrow's schedule
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- [ ] Enjoy the day
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# Thoughts
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A storm of doubts assails my mind
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Am I really supposed to go _there_?
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Is this not just the land of Sodom?
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Am I too allured by profit? Wealth?
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Family roots be one thing
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But the word of the lord another
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Am I actually doing his will?
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And yet
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Are not the people there my brothers and sisters?
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Whom I am to serve?
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With my witness?
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One which I feel suffocated
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Uneasy
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Untethered
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Ungrounded
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To do here
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And might just as well
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Be ungrounded elsewhere too
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Because on my heart is a love
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A love that is not rational
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But transcendental
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And yes, I suppose
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I can up and leave there too
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But I do need to regroup
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Re-understand myself
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And my family too
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Maybe it's doable
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Maybe not
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Only one way to know
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This is the biggest risk
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The best case scenario
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A dying diocese lit on fire for the Lord
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The worst case scenario
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Bickering and spiritual death |