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Prayers

  • Mass
  • Evening Rosary (w. mysteries)

Studies

  • 1 hr Catechism
  • 1 hr Civil Eng
  • 1 hr Agricultural Study
  • 2hr Woodwork

Did you eat well?

  • 1200 cal

Tasks

  • Set up tomorrow's schedule
  • Enjoy the day

Thoughts

A storm of doubts assails my mind Am I really supposed to go there? Is this not just the land of Sodom? Am I too allured by profit? Wealth? Family roots be one thing But the word of the lord another Am I actually doing his will?

And yet Are not the people there my brothers and sisters? Whom I am to serve? With my witness? One which I feel suffocated Uneasy Untethered Ungrounded To do here And might just as well Be ungrounded elsewhere too Because on my heart is a love A love that is not rational But transcendental

And yes, I suppose I can up and leave there too But I do need to regroup Re-understand myself And my family too Maybe it's doable Maybe not Only one way to know

This is the biggest risk The best case scenario A dying diocese lit on fire for the Lord

The worst case scenario Bickering and spiritual death