Okay, where am I?

1. I need discipline and motivation, at once.
2. There are two paths I see to get this:
	1. Start working with Jordan. Build up a handyman business with him, under his wing. Simultaneously, build up my iconography and woodworking business. Date seriously (Kylie?) - and find a plot of land to build the homestead out here. Or, at the end of my current lease, move back to IL.
	2. Go back and work with my family, effective now. Build up the farm and parish communities with them. Simultaneously, build up my iconography business (buy a laser + use grandpa's shop occasionally). Find or plan out how to build up our farm and my place in it.
3. I need to do these things this week
	1. Call landlord (Mon)
	2. Dissolve LLC (Mon)
	3. Lacquer cabinet errata (Mon)
	4. Touchup cabinets and install decorations (Mon)
	5. Draw St. Charbel
	6. Take Jackson to BOS Thursday AM
	7. Tearout around cabinet area - Tuesday 9am meet Fr Tom
	8. Install cabinets - Wednesday AM
4. I am seriously struggling to articulate what I want to other people. And I guess a big reason for that is what I want is so orthogonal to what society has spoken to us in terms of. What I want is a life where family is the basic pattern.