# Prayers
- [x] Mass
- [ ] Evening Rosary (w. mysteries)

# Studies
- [ ] 1 hr Catechism
- [x] 1 hr Civil Eng
- [x] 1 hr Agricultural Study
- [x] 2hr Woodwork

# Did you eat well?
- 1200 cal

# Tasks

- [ ] Set up tomorrow's schedule
- [ ] Enjoy the day

# Thoughts
A storm of doubts assails my mind
Am I really supposed to go _there_?
Is this not just the land of Sodom?
Am I too allured by profit? Wealth?
Family roots be one thing
But the word of the lord another
Am I actually doing his will?

And yet
Are not the people there my brothers and sisters?
Whom I am to serve?
With my witness?
One which I feel suffocated
Uneasy
Untethered
Ungrounded
To do here
And might just as well
Be ungrounded elsewhere too
Because on my heart is a love
A love that is not rational
But transcendental

And yes, I suppose
I can up and leave there too
But I do need to regroup
Re-understand myself
And my family too
Maybe it's doable
Maybe not
Only one way to know

This is the biggest risk
The best case scenario
A dying diocese lit on fire for the Lord

The worst case scenario
Bickering and spiritual death