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Archive/Vision/33 Qualities

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+# 33 Qualities I Would Want in a Wife
+- [ ] Pious
+- [ ] Strong
+- [ ] Intelligent
+- [ ] Reasonable
+- [ ] Well-spoken
+- [ ] Humorous
+- [ ] A good entertainer
+- [ ] Multi-talented
+- [ ] Not needy - but not ashamed to ask for help
+- [ ] Even-tempered
+- [ ] Loves kids
+- [ ] Disciplined
+- [ ] Vigorous
+- [ ] Sticktuitiveness
+- [ ] Attentive
+- [ ] Balances many tasks well
+- [ ] Has good taste
+- [ ] Has a good intellectual understanding of scripture and theology
+- [ ] Down-to-earth
+- [ ] Obedient
+- [ ] Conscientious
+- [ ] Rooted
+- [ ] Has a good relationship with her family
+- [ ] Knows how to run a house
+- [ ] Chaste
+- [ ] Sociable
+- [ ] Curious
+- [ ] Enterprising
+- [ ] Loves God's creation
+- [ ] Likes working with her hands

Archive/Vision/Community.md

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+Top-of-mind:
+1. I need good people around to shake up my family, to be good exemplars for them. If they are not good exemplars by themselves, they will surely need to be around others who are.
+2. I do desire community, not merely fellowship. Involvement in tasks and activities; economic intercourse. If what we do in our work matters, and we need others to see ourselves so that we may be better and improved, who we conduct business with matters - and it should, at least in part, be people also with their eyes set on God so that they may offer us correction and conversion.
+3. 

Archive/Vision/Day to Day.md

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+# Day to Day
+
+Dump
+1. I want to have a good relationship with my digital devices again like I (remember) having
+
+# Reinforce
+- Gospel readings w. Dad
+- Nightly Prayer
+
+# Remove & Replace
+- TV In Evenings
+	- Games
+	- Rosary
+	- Philosophical talk
+	- Talking about family matters
+- Not look to phones for validation / dopamine / etc.
+	- PRAY instead
+
+# Amend
+- Discussion during lunchtime meals (?)
+- Discussion during drives

Archive/Vision/Family.md

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+*Vibrant. Connected. Not shy, but not boisterous. Broad-focused on Christ; to see Him in all peoples and things.*
+
+## Reinforce
+- Family meals. These are a good. I can be helpful to them. Maybe this would be an entryway for my dad to be helpful to them, or at least take some stress off of my mother.
+- Family outings.
+
+## Remove
+- Aimless screentime. Yes, we want to unwind and relax. But we can do so in a more soul-building, and even more relaxing way.
+- Cycles of anger.
+
+## Amend
+- Prayer as a gathering activity, preferably every night.
+- Normal and frequent confession.
+- The act of mutual forgiveness from byzantine compline.
+- Wednesday night lectio.
+- Card games - or other games that we actually like. Skeet go-box (rounding things up is always a pain)
+- Play the piano again (mostly a personal thing); re-introduce music into the home
+- Shadowing my parents in what they do so I can understand and generate
+
+## Eventuals
+- Angelus bells
+- Houses nearby
+	- I don't think my mom will come around on living together. There's value in distance. But nearby - aye, that could be done.
+
+Top-of-mind:
+- I would like my father to be closer to you, Christ. To really seek virtue - manliness - as you lived it out. I would like him to integrate his understanding that people should develop into their individual potential - into every waking moment he works.
+- I would like my mother to be closer to you, Christ. To really understand her womanhood - and role in the family, as your mother Mary so lived out.
+- I would like my sister to be closer to you, Christ. To really understand her womanhood - to be bold and strong in it - as Mary did.
+- I will want children to lead on in my footsteps and continue the task of perfecting the world around them, but so recognize that this is to be rooted in the land and the gifts of God; relationship with them. I want my children to be fruitful and contribute to the family. I should like if they stayed close to me. I should like that my relationship with them be a good one so that they want to do so.
+- We are only ourselves for and with other people. We are never ourselves on our own; for we are perfect not for our own sake but for the sake of the world.
+- I should like my family to have a more open and involved prayer life. Here are some possibilities and ways this could begin:
+	- The Liturgy of the Hours, at least in part
+	- Angelus
+	- Reading of sacred scripture together, in the home. Weekly lectio? Sunday lectio?
+	- Parental blessing
+	- Rosary
+- This can't be an imposition. It can only really come in the form of inspiration and invitation.
+- I'll need a wife. And many kids. We'd need - and want - to get back to a big family.
+
+My family needs to be centered on Christ, and open enough to do so. This won't happen overnight (I think), but can happen. The best time to plant such a tree is 50 years ago, the next best is now.
+
+We need to be players, not played.

Archive/Vision/Farmstead.md

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+## What is the land we have to play with?
+- 2 acres of pasture
+- 200+ acres of corn/soy
+	- 1000+ acres from landlords
+- Moberly's: 3 1/2 acres
+- Backyard: 1 acre
+- Treeyard: 1/2 acre
+- Sweet corn: 2 acres
+- CRP strips?
+- Land bounded by moberly's / CRP strip?
+
+## Reinforce
+- Mom's garden
+- Chickens
+
+## Remove
+- Monocrops where we can
+- Big industrial machinery on food that feeds us
+
+## Amend
+- Permaculture / orchards
+	- Is there some land we can use for experimentation?
+- Cow(s) on pasture
+
+## Eventuals
+- 
+
+
+## What should it become?
+More accurately, what could we eat? What high-quality foods?
+- Pasture
+	- Chickens
+	- Cow(s)
+- Permaculture for fruits and vegetables - what do I eat?
+	- Leafy greens
+	- Tomatoes
+	- Cucumbers
+	- Some grains
+	- Raspberries
+	- Lemons
+	- Apples
+	- Potatoes?
+	- Peanuts?
+
+## Where to learn from
+- Doherty's
+	- Book: "The Independent Farmstead"
+- Polyface Farm
+- Permaculture book
+
+
+Dump:
+1. Get out of the cash economy; get out of the demands that it will make on myself, my community, and my family. The farmstead is an economic model that fits this.
+2. It's not a bunker, just a more sustainable vehicle. Keep the wheels from falling off. "Someone might shoot me, but the wheels won't fall off."
+3. Steward the land, living things, and non-living things around to coexist harmoniously; this is man's calling, to make things work harmoniously.
+4. Milk and honey are fundamental foods; milk is primary substance. All other food is an analogy to this first food.
+5. Natures of things need to be considered; the 'default' state of reality isn't what we want to propagate, but we want to bring the real natures of things out.
+6. It's not about control; it's about creative management.
+7. Wendell Berry says we take one solution and split it into two (lucrative) problems: we ought to be taking problems and merging them into solutions.
+8. Waste doesn't need to exist: we are just to figure out how to steward byproducts to where they are needed or will be most appreciated.
+9. Use means of survival that are a way of relationship between you and the Lord.
+10. We can't have high culture and have everything dependent on cash.
+11. Grass needs to be grazed. Cows can live on only grass - and when they do, they are less diseased. Grass can and should be productive.
+12. A cow can be sustained on grass for most of the year on about 2-3 acres of Appalachian land. How about on high-productivity land like ours? (for reference: our pasture is 2 acres)
+13. The goal is not to produce money, it's to perfect reality. Even though we're smothered by survival needs, at the core, we're doing stuff to perfect it and to enter into relationship with it. The perfection isn't about extrinsic goods but about intrinsic natures.
+14. In these things that are about relationship, nobody will do it as well as you, or someone you know intimately.
+15. Self-sufficiency is not about having enough money: using cash is being dependent on people you don't know.
+16. The resistance to small-scale farming is because it is possible.
+17. In a world of "lab-grown meat", a cow is a symbol of resistance.
+18. "I'm not going to go to Walmart. I'm going to provide this for myself."
+19. Although, it's not individual self-sufficiency. The cow extends beyond the family by nature; it cannot be consumed by one family. You cannot have the illusion of your existence as an isolated being. There are no true edges.
+20. Sustainability needs to be understood holistically.
+21. It's not about ease of life, it's about quality of life, true life.
+22. Perfection of natures requires a great deal of radical receptivity.
+	1. Hm. My parents aren't too far off with this in me and my sister. Although perhaps too feminine.
+23. Nature is not better without human beings.
+24. Human persons are not there for our individual desires; we are here to perfect nature into a pleasing offering for God.
+25. Insofar as the regime is about cash, women are oppressed.
+26. Subvert structures of sin.
+27. We should not depend on fewer and fewer, older and older, people who are more and more likely to kill themselves, to feed us.
+28. Saf just died. I wonder what that will mean for the Peacocks, going forwards.
+

Archive/Vision/Future Authoring - Summary.md

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+# Your Life in the Future
+
+I want to have friends that are virtuous or at least trying to lead a virtuous life; who consider the development of virtue and relationship with God to be of primal importance. I want to have friends who are a mix of productive and contemplative; who can think about and discuss things openly and honestly, while still being able to help me out in a bind, and whom I can learn from. These would be people who shape the material landscape with their brains and hands - farmers, writers, engineers, builders. I want these people to be personable, reliable, and tight-knit.
+
+I want to have leisure that is:
+- reading and discussing good books - theology, journals, and stories.
+- singing good music with friends.
+- continuing to improve my drawing skills.
+- do things with my body - carpentry, field work, etc.
+
+The environments that I do these in need to be conducive. E.G. - the shop needs to be more hospitable (water, maybe snacks, music)
+
+I want friends who will challenge me and call me out. I want friends who I can challenge without being a complete upturning. I would like to have a social life which is not at odds with my productive life, and rather compliments it. I want to not have hard boundaries between productivity and pleasure, but at the same time, not have everything devolve into one or the other.
+
+The ideal family life I have in mind is open and communicative.
+
+I would like children to be involved (or at least able to) in the family enterprise. I would like my wife to have a role in that which she does not feel burdened by, but rather is an excellent use of her skills. I think that even secretarial work, involving money, could be too burdensome. I want to strike a balance: I would like to be able to invite my children to participate, not beg them to. I would like the enterprise to be scalable in that way.
+
+I hope my partner is:
+- Honest and open.
+- Stable and calm - while still bold.
+- Secure in knowing she is loved.
+- Intelligent and handy.
+- Shares my values - but compliments my capabilities.
+
+I hope to be able to involve my parents in my life - and her parents - and even take them in. I want to be close with them, with good boundaries.
+
+I hope that my career is:
+- Independent of large (often evil) agencies
+- Facilitates technical growth
+- Works with local people as much as possible
+- Can involve children - so has a good amount of manual labor
+- Helps local people; works with local people; builds up local community
+- Stays in touch with biological processes and the laws of nature
+- Solves real problems, like lack of good healthy food
+
+# Vision
+- A Holistic and Holy World
+- Deep and living roots between plants, land, people, and God
+- People engaged in productive labor that they own
+
+# Mission
+- Build local community that unites work, faith, and family
+- Grow healthier food and ecosystems to prevent disease and increase quality of life
+- Form appropriate technology and systems at the service of the above
+# Goals & Actions
+
+These are manly rules - DIFFICULT BUT ACHIEVABLE!
+Do what God wants though - failure is not (mortal) sin!
+### Daily
+- Healthy lunch
+- Exercise and stretch
+- Talk with dad about one important thing in the morning
+- Talk with mom about one important thing in the morning
+- Talk with sis about one important thing in the evening
+- Do Examen (see below)
+- Set alarm for 10pm
+- Make bed and tidy room after waking
+### Few times a week
+- Play a sport
+### Weekly
+- Men's group
+- Set up one new social appointment
+- Offer two 1:1 meetings with old friends (events do not count)
+- Make a preflight checklist for the week, early Sunday morning
+### Monthly
+- 1 conference
+- 1 new skill/subject per month
+- 1 fiction book/month
+- Balance books
+- Plan an outing for friends
+- Facilitate two friends meeting one another
+### Other
+- Try to make one new connection at EVERY event
+- Take on projects that are just on the edge of my abilities
+- Build improvements for the shop
+- Read poetry rather than browsing the interwebs?
+### Drive Towards
+- A garden/farm plan (keep it portable)
+- A house plan (first, what are the needs?)
+- A more functional shop
+
+## Ignatian Examen
+1. Place yourself in God's presence. Give thanks for His love!
+2. Pray for the grace to understand God's action in your life.
+3. Review your day - recall specific moments and feelings.
+4. Reflect on what you did/said/thought. Did you draw to God?
+5. Look to tomorrow - how might you collaborate more effectively with God? (Write your do-list for tomorrow), and conclude with the "Our Father".

Archive/Vision/House.md

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+What is there?
+
+### Moberly's
+- 3.5 acres
+
+### Beich
+- approx. 3-4 acres, a good bit of which is a driveway and buildings. Doesn't count pasture. 
+- Used to be a cattle farm - the pasture was a feedlot.
+
+### Top-of-mind
+- Focus on reducing power requirements. Then, produce power from what is available.
+- Is corn burnable as fuel in a way that makes sense? Is the resulting ash useful? What can be grown that will be useful fuel in the wintertime? Are trees the right call?
+- Building a house on Moberly's, then building a bigger house on Beich's, would be a good idea. These areas are under a mile apart - they can have radio communication between them easily. They also both have good land around them.
+- Do we own moberly's land? What about the CRP strips? Can the CRP strips be used for grazing? The strip in front of Moberly's is many acres, and the little section that is currently farmed could be converted to something else? That could be a really cool setup!

Archive/Vision/Vision.md

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+> Unless the Lord buildeth a house, in vain the laborer toileth.
+
+LORD, what do you want to build my life into? I know that you'll be tearing things down. Direct me on how to rebuild the rubble and perfect it.
+
+# Mission
+### Build up a way of living with the Gospel at its core.
+  ##### Rediscover and rekindle the lifestyle of my forefathers, with my eyes fixed on God.
+
+## [[The Get-Out-Of-NH Punchlist]]
+
+# Aspects
+
+The farm provides for the family, who resides in the house, as a part of a community. The workshop helps build it all, but is sustained by them in turn. All require each other.
+
+This is primarily for my family. But it's open. It could need some workers. It definitely is open for guests to see what things should be like; to understand God's order.
+
+## [[Family]]
+## [[Farmstead]]
+## [[House]]
+## [[Community]]
+## [[Workshop Co-Op]]
+
+### Some idyllic prose
+We arise to the sound of the rooster - though slowly. It's time to say a quick morning offerring and head off to check the animals; bring in the eggs. Milk the cows in the cool of the morning. 
+
+
+# Understandings
+- Man is put on this earth to till and keep; to nurture things into the best version of themselves: a harmonious offering for God.
+- Work is formative and good. As we shape the world, we shape ourselves and our relationship to the world. To not work is to flirt with mental disorder.
+- Modern, globalized, industrial work is ill-suited to the development of an individual man: it alienates him, it dulls him, it turns him from love. We have built a techno-economic apparatus that forces people to do labor that they don't want to do.
+- Good work is _for_ something. Good work is harmonious, not violent. It has a why. It is character-forming. It is not acting like a machine for compensation.
+- True freedom is the freedom to not need, and the freedom to actually choose, and in particular, to choose virtuously.
+- We do not have to live the way that the modern technological norms suggest - we _can_ opt out. Small-scale farming is controversial because it is possible.
+- A sign of a healthy life is where the elders have something to give the youth.
+- Endless growth is not a good goal - generation is.
+- Fleeing and running are not good.
+- All improvements should be in the form of inspiration and invitation, not imposition.
+
+### Things to learn
+- Hand tool proficiency
+	- Planes
+	- Chisels
+	- Drawknives
+	- Sharpening
+- Pyrography
+- Writing (inspirational argumentation)
+- Permaculture design
+- Structural / building design
+- Canning and fermentation
+- Liturgy of the Hours / Rosary / Deepened prayer life
+
+### How are you going to learn these things?
+- Follow iBreviary, and say the rosary daily, including the mysteries
+- 2 hours a day doing woodwork or pyrography
+- 1 hour each day civil engineering study
+- 1 hour each day agricultural study
+- 1 hour each day catechetical study
+
+### High-level "Do-List"
+- Get book list for farmsteading
+	- Permaculture
+	- EIWTDII - finish it
+- Understand what property we have
+- Ask mom: what to do about LC LLC?
+- High-Level Question: when do I leave, who do I tell, when, etc.?
+	- Should I talk to Terry, and if so, how and what about?
+	- When / how do I tell:
+		- Jackson and Justin
+		- Lectio
+		- Makerspace
+		- Fr. Tom
+		- ... I guess tell that it's happening immediately.
+- Lord, when do I leave? Mahrajan, sooner, later? Talk to dad, I guess..
+- How do I want to integrate when I get back? Should I have an "outside" job?
+	- Pros: more mingling. More funds to slush around (I guess).
+	- Cons: breeds dependency. Less time to build up the 'stead.
+	- Narrow path: Part-time at a smaller place that will genuinely form those connections / serendipity needed. (Articulate this a bit better so your Grandpa and parents can help you)
+
+### Prayers
+- When do I leave?
+- Please, find me good work / a good way of reintegrating.

Archive/Vision/Workshop Co-Op.md

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+## What problems are you trying to reunite into a solution?
+- Farmers would like to do machinery customization and improvements beyond simple welding and cutting that they have
+	- Equipment increasingly needs precision in repair
+- Farmers can't justify the high-tech tools to do these sorts of customizations, or at least, can't justify having them in a well-kept environment.
+- Even if right-to-repair takes off, there will need to be spaces, or at least tool and knowledge hubs, by which to do these repairs.
+- Doing this sort of work requires a certain critical mass of know-how in technical matters.
+- Similar story with firearms and woodworkers.
+- A lot of rural folk lack community, and need community based on shared material interests and goals rather than just ideas and fellowship.
+- A lot of people are alienated from real productive work with their hands, and actually putting in labor to come into relationship with their things
+
+## Prior art / problems with previous solutions
+- Makerspaces require a lot of maintenance and upkeep. This requires communal buy-in, not only financially, but in running a place.
+- Projects often need large space. Rural problems are even bigger - sometimes even a planter big.
+- Tool shares are great - until two people need the same tool.
+
+## Implementation ideas
+- Members should be on a probationary period. Not just anyone should be able to come in.
+- Members should pay-in; they should need to invest a serious amount of money ($10k?) simply to become a member. This does, however, give you voting rights in how the workshop progresses. There may need or desire to be varying tiers of ownership or buy-in. There may be recurring expenses which are passed onto the members.
+- Utilize a large space on the outside of a town which doesn't have anticipated growth. This should form a good estuary between farmers and townsfolk, and allow for a large, easy-access facility while still being rooted in a town.
+- A metalshop and a woodshop should be clearly and cleanly separated, with a wall, probably with a rolling door between the two.
+- Tools may be loaned out or reserved - but doing so requires clear communication on the terms.
+- Related to buy-in: someone can buy-in via donation of a tool.