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+# 7th Day of the Exultation of the Cross
+## Daily offering
+LORD make me receptive to what you are trying to bring forth in me. You know what is best for the salvation of my soul; I a little child and must be obedient to this rather than my own whims. Give me the ability to be content with the little growth you give me each day.
+
+Help me to have true and unabashed faith in you - that you truly came and saved me; that I should, no, must be joyful.
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+
+### Luke Smith - Imagination is Demonic
+> LORD, grant me a dreamless sleep
+
+Imagination; dreaming about what 'could be' is detachment from real life.
+Hm. There's a difference between what 'could be' versus what 'should be' - what 'should be' is tethered to something.
+
+"Having imagination is being spiritually passive"
+If you have a productive goal and end up fantasizing about it too much, you don't do it
+**When the pleasure of thinking about it > the pleasure of doing it**
+
+-> force the pleasure of doing to overcome the pleasure of thinking
+
+We have to love things.
+
+-> quit dreaming and start listening to God.
+-> quit getting pulled every which way.
+-> don't spend time in idle fantasy. Act - MVPs, not plans.
+
+Spiritual activity, not spiritual passivity.
+When you have time alone and you let your thoughts control you, they lead you in really bad ways. You find faults, you get prideful - you don't get those conclusions if you have a constant rapport with people. Even with productive things.
+
+### Sh_t Cray with Jonathan Pageau
+> No center, no common project, nothing to bind us together. We don't have places to come together. We're used to living [and working] in these inhuman spaces.
+
+Charleston, SC - ion
+
+> The stupidest maxim: Form follows function
+
+> I find it difficult to find a place... *I wanted to make things that had a place in the world.* ... diving into the universal language ... Rediscover the christian faith and know that **things will flow slowly out of it**
+
+Carnival is where we let the weird out... and then that's it.
+
+> Nobody's lying anymore.
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 52/64
+
+##### arise
+[-] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[-] Daily offering and readings
+[x] Pack chair
+
+
+##### workday
+[/] Inbox 0
+[x] Raul
+[x] Hannah
+[x] Marc, Stephen, John
+[x] Deb
+
+[x] Heater placement
+[ ] Controls
+[ ] Fittings
+
+
+[x] 1:1 with Clint
+[x] Trivia
+[x] 1:1 with Shane
+
+[x] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day ( + rewrite offering )
+
+
+[x] fill out [[Discernment for Hongsheng]] (did on paper)
+
+##### evening (5-9)
+
+[x] Call dad on way back
+
+[x] Shelf brackets
+[x] Lamp bracket
+[x] Painting
+[->] PC for Jon (oops - I'll get him my tablet though)
+
+
+##### recover
+
+[ ] Just do an exam.
+[ ] Just do compline.
+
+
+
+# Exam
+
+### Lessons learned
+Stop fantasizing.
+Work is good. I enjoyed my 4 hours tonight even if I had to fight things at the makerspace.
+Travelling does broaden the mind. As I commute and talk with more people, more things seem realistic. It's good to entertain more possibilities - particularly because it gets out of the realm of fantasizing. Perhaps that's the importance of partnership; it forces us to make our ideas manifest, at least in speech, although this can still be circlejerking and incestuous.
+
+
+### Assessments / Deltas
+- Not the most effective with time at work. Making better plans of action would help prevent spiraling. I am getting a better sense of how to be effective with my time.
+
+### Sins / Missing of Marks
+- Didn't stay on task at work. I've left time off my timesheet, accordingly.
+- I probably should've said to deb I could help immediately.
+
+### Thanksgiving
+- This is a great trial period for how to do consulting engineering. I'll definitely learn from what I'm doing here and it'll serve me well if I do anything like this in the future. It's a mindset shift. LORD, thank you.
+
+### etc
+
+[ ] Buy Publican's for Noelle