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+# 2024-01-30
+
+## Vent - *All of it, out!*
+I AM FURIOUS THAT SOLIDWORKS COSTS SO MUCH
+And that I said I'd do this job
+What the hell
+why won't my laser cutter cut through baltic birch consistently? Is it something blocking? Is it the laser dying out for a sec? I need to change the water.
+I don't feel 100% at ease with this
+can i drum up additional work to make the investment worthwhile?
+i need to talk with farmers that are doing cool stuff
+i need to talk with people in general that are doing cool stuff
+does metalcow have a good connection to a var?
+it probably wouldn't matter though
+man software is such a scam
+why is the purely software stuff open-sourcey but hardware isn't?
+is it because it doesn't build on top of itself? software is a very rhyming ecosystem
+i need a spiritual director
+its so weird talking to people in the state that i am in
+what do i want to do? too much? not enough?
+i want to raise cows
+live with good people
+can i make my family good people
+can i make my area good
+is it possible at all
+it feels like the answer may be a pretty solid "no"
+yet where is adventure calling exactly?
+
+hello, deep unsettledness
+
+i don't know what to do with you
+you're horribly unproductive
+you say EVERYTHING is awful
+you say I am awful
+you say this world is awful
+and irredeemable
+get out
+never come back
+get out
+never come back
+get out
+never
+come
+back
+
+yet why does it feel good to wallow?
+like its the only appropriate thing to do
+
+when was the last good day you had?
+the barn raising.
+especially the night before.
+I think that might have been the best day of my life.
+
+We *did* that. It was *good*.
+
+Why am I not chasing that
+why am i not back there
+why am i not working with my hands, in community
+can i work for the outfit in paxton?
+
+Actually, I had another good day. Recently. At the shop with my grandpa.
+
+I had another good day, too. Installing the cabinet at Cedars.
+
+
+
+## Obligations - *list, then prioritize, and set the bare minimum*
+- Go to soil conference
+- Finish auger mover prototype
+- Send asks to farmers
+- Resolve my CAD situation
+- Clarify my TH Fab situation
+
+... that's the minimum.
+
+## Mindset - *Tools: Reframe, Possibility, Inversion, Perspective, Discipline*
+
+
+## Ideate - *Make 30 answers in 5 minutes! No editing til it's over*
+
+How to fix solidworks issue?
+- Just buy the damn license
+- Just buy a 3 month license
+- Buy a different CAD package and import STEP files. That one that starts with A.
+- Borrow Jon's license (you don't need that much for this project anyways)
+- Use FreeCAD
+- Use TeamViewer to remote desktop into Jon's computer
+- Use Remote Desktop into Jon's computer - use a separate login for security reasons
+- The prototype will just be some specced pulleys, sprockets, and a plate - just fabricobble it
+- Convince Jon to switch to a different CAD software
+- Find someone who will resell a SW seat
+- Get a deal cut on a SW seat
+- Take on more jobs to justify buying a SW license
+	- Online freelancing
+	- Furniture design company
+	- Support my own ventures legitimately
+	- Bring my friends' ideas to life
+	- Drawings for companies
+	- Designer for local fab shops (reach out)
+	- Reverse engineer ag parts
+- Make a makerspace; a real SOLIDWORKS seat at a desktop PC is a perk
+- Convince VAR to not sell me the cloud nonsense
+
+OK, there are options.
+
+## Trajectory - *What's the evidence for your goals - and what will you do? What are the hidden metrics?*
+
+## WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
+- Exercise
+- Packing up business cards, zines, notebook
+- Going to cover crop conference
+- Calling VARs
+- Writing down list of concerns / what I want to do next for Jon
+- Talk with Niko

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+There are two paths I want to go down. I want to raise livestock and I want to open a repair shop. I'm also uncertain if I should move to accomplish this. I don't need to immediately but we're getting crowded.
+
+Both of these things are answers to my longings, from two different directions. Livestock, from the angle that here is something that is in accordance with the created order, which is rooted in the land. Repair, from the angle that I am good with fabrication, and being able to solve my neighbor's problems, not just my own, not just some soulless corporation, would be excellent.
+
+My questions:
+- Should I form an LLC? Multiple?
+- Should I move?
+	- Should I find a spot closer to a good town? I'm liking Lincoln.
+	- Should I find rolling land that is lower cost?
+- Should I buy/build a shop?
+	- On Moberly's?
+- Should I find way more acres?
+
+My concerns:
+- Is family a help or a hindrance? If they were further, it may be better.
+	- It is good to have the resources and connections
+	- It is not good to have the drama and anti-innovative attitude
+- Is Illinois the right place to be?
+	- Bad government policy
+	- Fertile land (not that important)
+	- Family connections (from a responsibility standpoint more than anything else)
+- 

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+https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=0KIEmH-qt2Q
+
+St Paisios
+
+
+# Coptics
+- there's definitely something between Ireland and the east. Worth reading. Got a book recommendation
+- Monastic life vs. parish life. Put MONASTERIES in the center of towns. Make the towns subservient to ABBOTS.
+
+#### BOOK: How the Irish Saved Civilization
+They had an Armenian trade route got from them
+
+St Patrick trained in a monastery (came out of Egypt during John cassian) that's why Ireland is focused around the monastery
+
+2nd century Armenia recieved Christianity (St. George the Illuminator)
+
+St. Andrew went to Russia
+
+
+
+
+# Todos
+[x] Examination of Conscience
+[x] Fridge cleaning
+[ ] Write for MED
+[x] pick up Eric 2330
+
+
+# Examination of Conscience
+LORD, I peer into myself and see darkness, things that are not glorifying to you and contrary to your will. Help me to peer in and pluck them from myself, laying them before you. Come in and heal me. LORD, these are my sins.
+
+- I have been struggling to really find joy, profundity, and awe in the reality of the basics of the faith. I feel I'm losing a sort of inward reverence, though it does come back at times. I'm not consistently taking the attention to enter into the liturgy and prayers with my whole mind and heart and am often thinking of mundane things instead.
+- I have been filling the lulls of my day with benign things that aren't necessary (email, youtube) rather than reading edifying works or appreciating creation.
+- I haven't been calling my mom or deb as much as I should.
+- I harbored resentment against a project manager for being agressive during a meeting rather than letting me talk and resolve a situation.
+- I went off without good permission to redesign sections of a machine rather than waiting to get the go-ahead
+- In about half of my conversations I haven't maintained good eye contact.
+- General attitude of the workplace - I haven't been as amicable towards my new coworkers as I could be, preferring to go with the flow of the workplace rather than the flow of the Spirit.
+- I've lapsed into reciprocating profane language a few times
+- I've wasted a few hours of my employer's time by not being diligent enough.
+- I harbored ill-will towards an engineer on account of what I percieved (and still do percieve) to be poor design decisions.
+- I entertained temptation to masturbation by my actions when showering twice
+- I have been a bit jealous of Kristen/Justin
+- Noelle compline incident

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+# Martyrs Trophimus, Sabbatius...
+## Daily offering
+LORD make me receptive to what you are trying to bring forth in me. You know what is best for the salvation of my soul; I a little child and must be obedient to this rather than my own whims. Give me the ability to be content with the little growth you give me each day.
+
+Help me to have true and unabashed faith in you - that you truly came and saved me; that I should, no, must be joyful.
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+> Say not to your neighbor, “Go, and come again, tomorrow I will give,” when you can give at once.
+
+I could be better at this.
+
+> Envy not the lawless man
+
+> what he seems to have will be taken away.
+
+Things are not always as they seem. As we look around us and the 'success' of others, is it success? **Does it actually bring union with God?** This alone is success, and everything else is vanity.
+
+## Idea capture
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 56/64
+
+##### arise
+[x] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Daily offering and readings
+[->] Pack chair
+
+
+##### workday
+[x] Schedule 1:1s [[DAPR 1-1 Format]]
+[x] Request PTO for Cursillo
+
+[x] Talk to Evan re: controls materials
+[->] Try graphite (when it arrives)
+[x] Sticks meeting
+	How many more hours should I dump in?
+	Next prototyping steps?
+	Continue the motion profiler?
+
+(Cool, I actually understand what I'm supposed to be doing)
+[x] Tune solid models til they get where they should be prototyped
+[x] Make simplified physics model
+[->] Put heaters under jhook's thing
+
+[x] 1:1 with Tim
+
+[x] Sign out - Timesheet
+
+##### evening
+
+[x] Deb
+[x] Picture frame
+
+##### recover
+
+[ ] Just do an exam.
+[ ] Just do compline.
+
+
+
+# Exam
+
+### Lessons learned
+Don't jump to the most complex thing always. Sometimes, taking the smaller case and getting a handle on it allows you to figure out if the bigger one is a bigger deal. Don't blow things out of proportion.
+
+### Sins / Missing of Marks
+- I didn't ask all the questions I wanted to in my 1:1 with Tim. However the conversation didn't feel like it would lean that way. But I can still push and ask and use it as a window for evangelization.
+- I shouldn't be browsing/swiping while driving. I need a good stream/source of edifying content.
+- I don't genuinely love Deb and my fellow man enough. Do I need a socializing fast? A fast from Lectio? Or something else? I don't know.
+
+### Brain dump
+Hongsheng wears on me. I just don't love this. Isn't that reason enough to not do it? Maybe not. Action: do [[Discernment for Hongsheng]] tomorrow and at least give him a quick reply back.

Archive/Journal/2022-09-20.md

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+# 7th Day of the Exultation of the Cross
+## Daily offering
+LORD make me receptive to what you are trying to bring forth in me. You know what is best for the salvation of my soul; I a little child and must be obedient to this rather than my own whims. Give me the ability to be content with the little growth you give me each day.
+
+Help me to have true and unabashed faith in you - that you truly came and saved me; that I should, no, must be joyful.
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+
+### Luke Smith - Imagination is Demonic
+> LORD, grant me a dreamless sleep
+
+Imagination; dreaming about what 'could be' is detachment from real life.
+Hm. There's a difference between what 'could be' versus what 'should be' - what 'should be' is tethered to something.
+
+"Having imagination is being spiritually passive"
+If you have a productive goal and end up fantasizing about it too much, you don't do it
+**When the pleasure of thinking about it > the pleasure of doing it**
+
+-> force the pleasure of doing to overcome the pleasure of thinking
+
+We have to love things.
+
+-> quit dreaming and start listening to God.
+-> quit getting pulled every which way.
+-> don't spend time in idle fantasy. Act - MVPs, not plans.
+
+Spiritual activity, not spiritual passivity.
+When you have time alone and you let your thoughts control you, they lead you in really bad ways. You find faults, you get prideful - you don't get those conclusions if you have a constant rapport with people. Even with productive things.
+
+### Sh_t Cray with Jonathan Pageau
+> No center, no common project, nothing to bind us together. We don't have places to come together. We're used to living [and working] in these inhuman spaces.
+
+Charleston, SC - ion
+
+> The stupidest maxim: Form follows function
+
+> I find it difficult to find a place... *I wanted to make things that had a place in the world.* ... diving into the universal language ... Rediscover the christian faith and know that **things will flow slowly out of it**
+
+Carnival is where we let the weird out... and then that's it.
+
+> Nobody's lying anymore.
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 52/64
+
+##### arise
+[-] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[-] Daily offering and readings
+[x] Pack chair
+
+
+##### workday
+[/] Inbox 0
+[x] Raul
+[x] Hannah
+[x] Marc, Stephen, John
+[x] Deb
+
+[x] Heater placement
+[ ] Controls
+[ ] Fittings
+
+
+[x] 1:1 with Clint
+[x] Trivia
+[x] 1:1 with Shane
+
+[x] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day ( + rewrite offering )
+
+
+[x] fill out [[Discernment for Hongsheng]] (did on paper)
+
+##### evening (5-9)
+
+[x] Call dad on way back
+
+[x] Shelf brackets
+[x] Lamp bracket
+[x] Painting
+[->] PC for Jon (oops - I'll get him my tablet though)
+
+
+##### recover
+
+[ ] Just do an exam.
+[ ] Just do compline.
+
+
+
+# Exam
+
+### Lessons learned
+Stop fantasizing.
+Work is good. I enjoyed my 4 hours tonight even if I had to fight things at the makerspace.
+Travelling does broaden the mind. As I commute and talk with more people, more things seem realistic. It's good to entertain more possibilities - particularly because it gets out of the realm of fantasizing. Perhaps that's the importance of partnership; it forces us to make our ideas manifest, at least in speech, although this can still be circlejerking and incestuous.
+
+
+### Assessments / Deltas
+- Not the most effective with time at work. Making better plans of action would help prevent spiraling. I am getting a better sense of how to be effective with my time.
+
+### Sins / Missing of Marks
+- Didn't stay on task at work. I've left time off my timesheet, accordingly.
+- I probably should've said to deb I could help immediately.
+
+### Thanksgiving
+- This is a great trial period for how to do consulting engineering. I'll definitely learn from what I'm doing here and it'll serve me well if I do anything like this in the future. It's a mindset shift. LORD, thank you.
+
+### etc
+
+[ ] Buy Publican's for Noelle

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+# 7th Day of the Exultation of the Cross
+## Daily offering
+LORD make me receptive to what you are trying to bring forth in me. You know what is best for the salvation of my soul; I a little child must be obedient to this rather than my own whims. Give me the ability to be content with the little growth you give me each day, to accept all of the blessings you give me, and to reject all temptations of the devil.
+
+Help me to not fantasize, but actualize your will. I don't need to imagine; I need only to contemplate.
+
+Help me to have true and unabashed faith in you - that you truly came and saved me; that I should, no, must be joyful.
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+> I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.
+
+If you are called, it is not because of your virtue and merits, but because of your great sin - redeem the time, then, and fill the call.
+
+## Idea capture
+There's no barbarity in spiritual audacity. To succeed at anything, one needs a wild streak - the heart must become uncalculating.
+Think about death constantly, and look upon your deathbed. One needs to trust God, and not oneself.
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 52/64
+
+##### arise
+[x] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[ ] Daily offering and readings
+
+[ ] Reply Hongsheng
+
+
+##### workday
+[x] Inbox 0
+
+[/->] Finish drawings
+[x] Familiarize with John's Frame - 1026.2mm
+	165in sep x 2 + 90T sprocket = 420 in wrap... /14 = 30" per mold ... nice.
+
+	[ ] Bearing followers / detail out this area
+	[ ] Refresh frame (bracing)
+	[ ] Floor attachment
+	[ ] Press attachment
+	[ ] Chain guarding
+
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+
+[ ] Bladder
+[ ] 1:1s
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening (5-9)
+
+[ ] Call Raul 4:30
+[ ] Swing by get pc + mic for jon (5:30)
+[ ] Swing by deb (5:45)
+[ ] Spend time in adoration re: lifestyle
+
+[ ] Lectio
+
+##### recover
+
+[ ] Just do an exam.
+[ ] Just do compline.
+
+
+
+# Exam
+

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+# 7th Day of the Exultation of the Cross
+## Daily offering
+LORD make me receptive to what you are trying to bring forth in me. You know what is best for the salvation of my soul; I a little child must be obedient to this rather than my own whims. Give me the ability to be content with the little growth you give me each day, to accept all of the blessings you give me, and to reject all temptations of the devil.
+
+Help me to not fantasize, but actualize your will. I don't need to imagine; I need only to contemplate.
+
+Help me to have true and unabashed faith in you - that you truly came and saved me; that I should, no, must be joyful.
+
+## Focus for the Day
+Be efficient in designing something (the mold carriage)
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+Manage present things with a view to what takes place
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+why is this impossible
+because I expect it to be perfect
+LORD give me the serenity to accept less-than-perfection
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 46/68
+
+##### arise
+[x] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[->] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Daily offering and readings
+
+[x] Tell Hongsheng No
+[x] Noevena
+
+
+##### workday
+[x] Inbox 0
+
+
+116332754
+116332755
+116332756
+116332757
+116332758
+116332759
+116332760
+116332761
+116332762
+116332763
+116332764
+116332765
+116332766
+116332767
+116332768
+116332769
+116332770
+116332771
+
+
+832773
+832774
+832775
+832776
+832777
+832778
+
+[ ] Transfer over notes from Raul to digital
+
+[x] Bearing followers / detail out this area
+[ ] Chain guarding
+[ ] How to do bearings
+[ ] Refresh frame (bracing)
+[ ] Floor attachment
+[ ] Press attachment
+[ ] Chain guarding
+
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+
+[ ] Esto Vir
+
+##### recover
+
+[ ] Just do an exam.
+[ ] Just do compline.
+
+
+
+# Exam
+

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+# Friday
+## Focus for the Day
+Finish this mold thing
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+"Will you condemn the world, or redeem it?"
+
+## Idea capture
+
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Cloudy, 52/72
+
+##### arise
+[x] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Daily offering and readings
+[x] Rosary
+
+##### workday
+[x] Inbox 0
+
+[x] Mold conveyor
+[x] Chain Guides
+[x] Connection to press frame
+[x] Lateral bracing
+[x] Fix spacing / bearings / etc.
+	Bring channels in 8mm
+	Span <-> Span = 2496.8mm
+	[ ] 5" channel top
+	[ ] 3" channel w 1/4" backer bottom
+[->] Air line fleshout
+[x] Drive tensioner
+
+###### Minutia
+[x] Guard thru holes
+[->] Hardware
+[x] Levelling feet (6992K24)
+[x] Holes for shafts in guards
+[x] Slim to 3" tubes
+[x] Fix sprocket diameters
+[x] Cross-bracing height
+[x] End caps
+
+116332768
+116332769
+116332770
+116332771
+832849
+832850
+832851
+
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+[ ] xfer notes and concerns
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+
+[ ] Deb or Noelle
+
+# Exam
+
+wtf. this thing is HEAVY.

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+# Tuesday
+## Focus for the Day
+Finish this mold thing
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+Will you redeem the world, or condemn it?
+
+## Idea capture
+Padre Pio
+1. Weekly Confession
+2. Daily Communion
+3. Examination of Conscience every evening
+4. Daily Spiritual Reading
+5. Mental Prayer 2x Daily
+	1. Preparation
+
+
+> Never finish mental prayer without a resoluition
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 49/72
+
+##### arise
+[ ] Pack Lunch (sandwiches)
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[ ] Daily offering and readings
+[ ] Rosary
+
+##### workday
+[ ] Inbox 0
+
+[ ] What is the torque requirement?
+[ ] How do I put a bigger shaft in there?
+
+
+
+
+[ ] Air line fleshout
+[x] Structural calcs
+[->] Heater speccing
+[->] Quarter-turn gender change
+[x] Bigger shaft (or something... jeez)
+
+###### Minutia
+[ ] Hardware
+[ ] Takeup Tensioner Rod
+[ ] Keyways
+[ ] Chain collision on wrap around
+	[ ] Just switch to the flanged track rollers, fixes a lot of problems jeez
+
+116332768
+116332769
+116332770
+116332771
+
+
+832851
+
+169.2+50.8
+
+422.3 ir 449 or
+
+[x] Mass, lunch
+
+[x] Timesheet
+[x] PDM
+[x] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Call Deb. Options:
+	- Wed or Fri PM 
+[ ] 7PM parish council
+[ ] Give Fr Tom letter
+
+# Exam
+Sharpen your axe. I didn't spend enough time sharpening my axe and doing the calculations, asking the questions, etc. needed for the sticks project. What could I have done?
+- Ask lots of questions up front and do the analysis required
+- Structure out the CAD and plan how mirroring/patterning would work
+- Plan how the top-level-ness would work (interface sketches)
+- Spend cross-section detail on the track rollers (see, you're still needing to do this...)
+
+There's time to try this again. I need to come up with the air reels. 

Archive/Journal/2022-09-28.md

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+# Tuesday
+## Focus for the Day
+
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+
+### Mental prayer 1
+Resolution: don't snooze
+
+
+What can I do better?
+Learn to use jupyter better
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### PNs
+832960
+832961
+832962
+832963
+832964
+832965
+832966
+832967
+832968
+832969
+832970
+832971
+832972
+116332975
+116332976
+116332977
+116332978
+116332979
+116332980
+116332981
+116332982
+116332983
+116332984
+116332985
+116332986
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 49/69
+
+##### arise
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[ ] Rosary
+[ ] Noelle airport
+
+##### workday
+[ ] Inbox 0
+
+[x] Flanged track rollers
+[x] Tension / spacing is wrong
+	overall = 30x14 = 420"
+[x] Takeup tensioning screw
+[x] Check sprocket -> slot interface
+[x] Chain georep
+
+[x] Air line fleshout
+[->] Gender change on mold clamps
+
+###### Minutia
+[/] Hardware
+[x] Takeup Tensioner Rod
+[x] Chain collision on wrap around
+	[x] Just switch to the flanged track rollers, fixes a lot of problems jeez
+
+[->] Die spring weight
+[->] Keyways
+[->] Prettify spreadsheet
+[->] Winching??
+
+[x] Mass, lunch
+	[->] Talk w Stephen about wilton property?
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[->] Call Grandma
+[x] ALDI
+[->] Amazon Returns
+[x] Lectio
+	[x] Finish q's with Nate (by EOD Thursday)
+	[ ] 
+
+# Exam
+## Sins
+I got road ragey when I was stuck in Boston for 2 hours more than I anticipated
+I looked at my phone while at Murphy's
+Browsing youtube after prayer...
+
+https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IkOaLl_Amqc

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+# Tuesday
+## Focus for the Day
+
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IkOaLl_Amqc
+https://twitter.com/heyeaslo/status/1491782728928280583
+
+
+### Meeting w Fraser
+- If you want to upskill, send a plan to Fraser and he'll ok it
+- 
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### PNs
+
+832966
+832967
+832968
+832969
+832970
+832971
+832972
+
+116332979
+116332980
+116332981
+116332982
+116332983
+116332984
+116332985
+116332986
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 49/69
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Readings
+[x] Pack lunch
+[x] Alma
+
+##### workday
+[x] Inbox 0
+
+[x] 1:1 w Fraser - what are goals? What needs discussed?
+	What are your goals?
+		- To grow in virtue; namely diligence
+		- Expand my skillset and realm of skillset into larger equipment
+		- Develop more interpersonal skills - leadership
+		- Develop more appreciation and understanding of business decisions and processes guiding them
+		- Technical growth
+			- Controls / Electrical
+			- Simulation / Analysis
+
+[x] Air reel mounting
+	[x] Plates
+	[x] 80/20 Structure
+	[x] 80/20 Accessories
+	[x] Resize
+	[x] Track mounting holes
+	[x] Far side sheetmetal support
+	[x] End stops
+	[x] PN for air reel
+	[x] Extra cbores
+
+[x] Offline cutter read-in
+[x] Tempco quote
+
+[ ] Better way of doing mold clamps
+[ ] Prettify spreadsheet / eqns
+
+
+[->] Die spring weight
+[->] Keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[->] Winching - talk with John
+
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Rosary
+[ ] Groceries - Kielbasa, salt, scrubbing
+[ ] Call Mom, Grandma
+[ ] Cabin
+
+# Exam
+## Sins

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+# Tuesday
+## Focus for the Day
+
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+
+
+## Idea capture
+https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IkOaLl_Amqc
+https://twitter.com/heyeaslo/status/1491782728928280583
+
+
+### Meeting w Fraser
+- If you want to upskill, send a plan to Fraser and he'll ok it
+- 
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### PNs
+
+832966
+832967
+832968
+832969
+832970
+832971
+832972
+
+
+
+116332979
+116332980
+116332981
+116332982
+116332983
+116332984
+116332985
+116332986
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 49/69
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Readings
+[x] Pack lunch
+[x] Alma
+
+##### workday
+[x] Inbox 0
+
+[x] 1:1 w Fraser - what are goals? What needs discussed?
+	What are your goals?
+		- To grow in virtue; namely diligence
+		- Expand my skillset and realm of skillset into larger equipment
+		- Develop more interpersonal skills - leadership
+		- Develop more appreciation and understanding of business decisions and processes guiding them
+		- Technical growth
+			- Controls / Electrical
+			- Simulation / Analysis
+
+[x] Air reel mounting
+	[x] Plates
+	[x] 80/20 Structure
+	[x] 80/20 Accessories
+	[x] Resize
+	[x] Track mounting holes
+	[x] Far side sheetmetal support
+	[x] End stops
+	[x] PN for air reel
+	[x] Extra cbores
+
+[x] Offline cutter read-in
+[x] Tempco quote
+
+[ ] Better way of doing mold clamps
+[ ] Prettify spreadsheet / eqns
+
+
+[->] Die spring weight
+[->] Keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[->] Winching - talk with John
+
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Rosary
+[ ] Groceries - Kielbasa, salt, scrubbing
+[ ] Call Mom, Grandma
+[ ] Cabin
+
+# Exam
+## Sins

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+# Friday - Memorial of Saint Jerome, Priest and Doctor of the Church
+## Focus for the Day
+
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+> Have you ever in your lifetime commanded the morning, and shown dawn its place
+
+## Idea capture
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### PNs
+
+833038
+833039
+833040
+833041
+833042
+833043
+833044
+
+
+116332981
+116332982
+116332983
+116332984
+116332985
+116332986
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 41/65
+	sunset is 6:31
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Readings
+[x] Pack lunch
+
+[x] Rosary
+
+##### workday
+
+[x] Torque calcs
+[x] Better way of doing mold clamps
+[ ] Prettify spreadsheet / eqns
+
+[x] 1/8
+[x] custom reel guide
+[x] revise frame to put things where they need to be / centralized
+	[x] 40-4020 profile w crossholes
+	[x] 40-8080 profile mains
+	[x] 40-4080 diagonal
+	[x] 40-4040 attachment for rails
+	[x] custom holes for rails
+
+[x] Air fittings in CAD w Manifold
+	250mm / 9.75" wd ()
+	
+[->] uprights feet
+[->] Reach-over guard
+
+
+[x] Reconvene w John
+	- Bayonet fitting
+	- trolley
+
+
+
+[ ] Compile questions / reqs for offline cutter
+
+
+[->] Keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[->] Winching - talk with John
+[->] Die spring weight
+
+
+##### Lunch
+[ ] Send over questions to Raul
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+
+
+##### Get outta here
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Deb - Deerfield
+
+# Exam
+## Sins

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+# Thought Capture
+Noelle has wounds and has faced loss, and has scrupulosity like Terese. Remember that.
+
+A tree with bad fruit has roots of wounds and a trunk of self-sufficiency. It must be uprooted, but that's a lot of effort
+
+### 2 Kings 5:1-19
+Sometimes the things we are asked to do, or ask others to do, are strange. Don't back down. Even if you are rejected, you plant seeds.
+
+###
+
+LORD, thank you for letting me be open. Thank you for tears. Thank you for salvation.
+
+My work ought to be an outpouring of my love for you and my fellow man. In all things ask: "Does this make my love God and fellow man more?"
+
+I'm not a friend to Deb, and won't be. I'm a helper. That's OK. I know that but she struggles. The Samaritan helped, not befriended, and didn't trade.
+
+### Sophia
+- All parishes should have a group of prayers
+- Parish councilmen should be educated to understand their role
+- Join KofC councils
+- Need more eparchies
+- 
+
+### Fr Rory's Talk
+
+Most of our life is spent in the middle of climbing a mountain.
+Mountain - no mountain - mountain.
+We hike up the mountain only for a glimpse, which will be taken away, and hushed (Transfiguration)
+
+
+# Opportunities
+[ ] OLOC Men's Group
+[ ] Men's group with Jordan
+[ ] Lebanese dance at OLOC
+[ ] MED earticles that DAPR folk would read
+[ ] Get Deb to mass on a regular basis
+	- Church buss
+[ ] Talk more with Laplante
+
+But I really don't have the energy or time, it seems. Help me to delegate lord, and find the time when I need to.
+
+# Todos - Outcomes
+[ ] Pray for the new person for Deb

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+# Monday - 27th week after Pentecost
+## Focus for the Day
+
+
+## Meditations from Daily Readings
+> 
+
+## Idea capture
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### PNs
+
+833089
+833090
+833091
+833092
+833093
+833094
+833095
+833096
+833097
+833098
+833099
+833100
+116332983
+116332984
+116332985
+116332986
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 38/59
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Offerring
+[x] Pack lunch
+
+[x] Chotky
+
+##### workday
+
+[x] Longer nipple
+[x] Attach air reels etc.
+[x] 80/20 HW/brackets
+[x] Compile questions / reqs for offline cutter
+
+[x] Checkin 9:30
+
+[x] Prettify spreadsheet / eqns
+[x] uprights feet
+[x] Reach-over guard
+[->] 40-4020 profile on press frames
+[x] Mold Conveyor Hardware
+	- [x] yz mirror
+	- [x] pins
+	- [x] chain guard
+	- [x] bushings
+	- [x] laterals
+
+[->] Vac Table - size?
+	[x] Send quick ask to atlanticind.com
+	[->] Outline stage/table sizing reqs
+
+[->] Keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[->] Winching - talk with John
+[->] Die spring weight
+
+
+##### Lunch
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+[ ] Reply to Raul
+
+
+##### Get outta here
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Deb
+
+# Exam
+## Sins
+- Watching benign content (YT shorts and miscellanea)
+	- Amounts for about an hour cumulative
+- Checking linkedin
+	- Amounts for about half an hour cumulative
+- Consider how much more I could have done with that hour and a half if it were directed towards you, LORD. I shouldn't worry about the little time I do spend with Noelle or other friends. There's actual time worth redeeming.
++ Decided 6:30 morning prayer, so I need to be ready to hit the road before then. This should be good for my routine. Thank you LORD for the good decision.
++ Good talk by Fr. Ripperger.
+-> Listen to the orarion talk tomorrow morning whilst working (take notes via obsidian), then the mental prayer one again in the afternoon if feeling up for it.
+-> Write an orarion
+- Wasn't very mindful of noelle's emotional needs, used the word clingy to describe some of her actions when a better word was needed and she was emotionally vulnerable.
+-> Write prayer intentions

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+# Tuesday - 27th week after Pentecost
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+#### Onscreen keyboard with custom symbols
+- Could be a good piece of software to write
+
+#### Other problem-storming
+- Symbol input
+- Hassle of going from websites with .zip-ped CAD to actually opening it up in your program
+- Calculators
+	- Torsion
+	- Bolted joints
+	- Wedges
+	- More conventional motor sizing techniques
+	- OK, so I understand how to make decently usable (and suckless) software, but there's major problems here:
+		- How can this be useful as documentation / play nice with others (should it?)
+		- How can I monetize?
+			- SAAS it: freemium access to the tools.
+				- Basic calcs are available publicly but pay for full access
+			- SAYOI it: freemium ownership of the tools
+				- One-time though, you gotta pay for updates
+				- Shopify!?
+				- This has the advantage of more $ when stuff gets rolled out
+				- This is also the more ethically sound option and has less headache
+				- It's what I'd want the tool to be, anyways
+				- Sponsor FRC teams
+- Daily prayer / whatever sent to your kindle
+	- "Authorize my email address and you can get stuff from me"
+- Email -> kindle redirect
+
+## Recollection
+What went well today?
+- ! I communicated mostly clearly with Bob about expectations for the layup table
+- ! I listened to the Fr. Ripperger talk and made an Orarion
+- ! I'm continuing to stick to using obsidian, and it's working well
+- ! I had an interesting thought about monetizing EveryCalc
+- ! I'm getting MED recordings scheduled.
+- ! I made dinner at home which was quite enjoyable.
+- ! I went to the grocery store before work
+- ! I prayed a rosary
+
+I had a really good day. Thank you LORD. I know part of that is I didn't do a lot, but I enjoyed my day and am ready for a bigger one tomorrow.
+
+What sins have I committed today?
+- I spent a little time being distracted by youtube (15 mins)
+- I put off making calls at work
+
+What graces did I squander?
+- I didn't use the hour I had after the parish council meeting to write for MED like I had hoped
+- I could've spoken up a little more at the parish council meeting
+- 
+
+Was I two-minded?
+- I didn't enter deeply into compline.
+
+?? - ? - ?! - !? - ! - !!
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Spiritual life
+[ ] Fr Ripperger on Orarion (rule of life)
+[ ] Make an orarion
+	[ ] Regimen
+	[ ] Systematically root out defects (axe to the roots)
+	[ ] Have something in the spiritual life you're consistently working on
+[ ] Write down daily prayer intentions into obsidian
+
+##### PNs
+
+833094
+833095
+833096
+833097
+833098
+833099
+833100
+
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 44/58
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Pack lunch
+
+[ ] Rosary
+
+##### workday
+
+
+[x] Vac Table - true size
+[x] linear stage sizing
+- [x] dynamics calculations
+
+[x] Calculate keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[x] Model keyways on mold conveyor shafts
+[x] Drive sprocket (ISO 16B?) - 25mm w 8mm key
+[x] Check in chain guides
+[x] Fix chain mirror
+
+
+[x] Talk with Bob and get direction
+
+[x] Die spring weight
+[x] Chain assembly
+
+[->] press frame holes (80/20 profile mounting)
+[->] call atlantic
+[->] Call Zach Goslin
+
+
+
+
+
+[x] Decide a vac table size
+[x] vac table placeholder
+[x] gantry placeholders
+[x] festo drive
+[X] extra linear support (don't spend a lot of time on it)
+[ ] cartoon 80/20 frame
+
+
+-> calls to make
+[ ] Tempco
+	- Just figure out exactly what he means
+[ ] Vac table guys
+	- Explain the use case
+	- What can you help us with?
+[ ] Festo
+	- CAD?
+	- Multi-carriage?
+	- Sizing
+
+
+###### misc for future
+[ ] purchased parts datasheets
+
+##### Lunch
+[x] Mass, lunch
+[x] Reply to Raul
+
+##### Get outta here
+[x] Timesheet
+[x] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Send men's group desire to Solomon
+[->] Amy - deb
+[->] Call with Hannah
+[ ]  7PM parish council
+	- [ ] KofC?
+	- [ ] 
+
+
+# Exam
+## Sins

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+# Tuesday - 27th week after Pentecost
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+#### Other problem-storming
+- Symbol input
+- Hassle of going from websites with .zip-ped CAD to actually opening it up in your program
+- Calculators
+	- Torsion
+	- Bolted joints
+	- Wedges
+	- More conventional motor sizing techniques
+	- OK, so I understand how to make decently usable (and suckless) software, but there's major problems here:
+		- How can this be useful as documentation / play nice with others (should it?)
+		- How can I monetize?
+			- SAAS it: freemium access to the tools.
+				- Basic calcs are available publicly but pay for full access
+			- SAS it: freemium ownership of the tools
+				- One-time though, you gotta pay for updates
+					- Each one is paid vs. bundle/you-get-it-all
+				- Shopify!?
+				- This has the advantage of more $ when stuff gets rolled out
+				- This is also the more ethically sound option and has less headache
+				- It's what I'd want the tool to be, anyways
+				- Sponsor FRC teams
+- Daily prayer / whatever sent to your kindle
+	- "Authorize my email address and you can get stuff from me"
+- Email -> kindle redirect
+- 
+
+## Recollection
+- Today was... I was busy, but not productive. I spun my wheels a bit. I didn't have anything to go into and do when I wasn't laser-focused on the task at hand.
++ I did make more meaningful contributions in technical review. I think I'm getting ahold of where I can add value to engineering conversations.
++ I climbed, though not spectacularly. I need to improve my strength and more than anything my flexibility. I'll get there, though.
++ The brewery next to vertical dreams is wonderful. Their Hefeweizen was excellent.
+- I spent approx. 15 mins in distraction
+- I didn't actually send the ask to solomon like I intended
+- I didn't call my mom like I intended
+- Overall, I was inflexible today. I need to bend a little.
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Spiritual life
+
+##### PNs
+833097
+833098
+833099
+833100
+116333190
+116333191
+116333192
+116333193
+116333194
+116333195
+116333196
+116333197
+116333198
+116333199
+116333200
+116333201
+116333202
+116333203
+116333204
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 44/58
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Breastplate
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Pack lunch
+[ ] Matins
+
+##### workday
+
+[->] press frame holes (80/20 profile mounting)
+[x] cartoon 80/20 frame
+
+[x] Tempco
+	- 630.477.3214
+	- Just figure out exactly what he means
+[->] Vac table guys
+	- 860-677-6400 x 112
+	- Explain the use case
+	- What can you help us with?
+[->] Festo
+	- CAD?
+	- Multi-carriage?
+	- Sizing
+[->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+[->] purchased parts datasheets
+
+##### Lunch
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+[ ] Men's group -> Solomon
+
+##### Get outta here
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Call with Hannah
+[ ] Lectio or Noelle
+	[ ] Amy - deb

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+# Thursday - 27th week after Pentecost
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+#### Other problem-storming
+- Symbol input
+- Hassle of going from websites with .zip-ped CAD to actually opening it up in your program
+- Calculators
+	- Torsion
+	- Bolted joints
+	- Wedges
+	- More conventional motor sizing techniques
+	- OK, so I understand how to make decently usable (and suckless) software, but there's major problems here:
+		- How can this be useful as documentation / play nice with others (should it?)
+		- How can I monetize?
+			- SAAS it: freemium access to the tools.
+				- Basic calcs are available publicly but pay for full access
+			- SAS it: freemium ownership of the tools
+				- One-time though, you gotta pay for updates
+					- Each one is paid vs. bundle/you-get-it-all
+				- Shopify!?
+				- This has the advantage of more $ when stuff gets rolled out
+				- This is also the more ethically sound option and has less headache
+				- It's what I'd want the tool to be, anyways
+				- Sponsor FRC teams
+- Daily prayer / whatever sent to your kindle
+	- "Authorize my email address and you can get stuff from me"
+- Email -> kindle redirect
+- 
+
+## Recollection
+
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Spiritual life
+
+##### PNs
+
+833098
+833099
+833100
+
+116333191
+116333192
+116333193
+116333194
+116333195
+116333196
+116333197
+116333198
+116333199
+116333200
+116333201
+116333202
+116333203
+116333204
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 54/59
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Breastplate
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Pack lunch
+[x] Matins
+[x] Pack
+	- [x] Comfortable and warm clothes
+	- [x] Toiletries
+	- [x] Journal (clipboard) / pens / bible
+	- [x] Checkbook
+	- [x] Extra blanket
+
+##### workday
+[ ] Compile notes
+[x] 8020 section properties
+
+[->] press frame holes (80/20 profile mounting)
+
+[x] Animation
+[x] Vac table rough print
+	- Zones
+	- Thickness
+	- Mounting?
+[x] Design custom vac table
+[x] Vacuum routing
+[x] Size pump
+[x] resolution
+
+
+[x] Vac table guys
+	- 860-677-6400 x 112
+	- Explain the use case
+	- What can you help us with?
+	- 10hp high-v blower
+	- 40 lbs
+	- 3-4wk lead time
+[-x-] Festo
+	- CAD?
+	- Multi-carriage?
+	- Sizing
+[->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+[ ] purchased parts datasheets
+
+##### Lunch
+[ ] Mass, lunch
+[ ] Men's group -> Solomon
+
+##### Get outta here
+[ ] Timesheet
+[ ] PDM
+[ ] Next Day
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Call with Hannah
+[ ] Lectio or Noelle
+	[ ] Amy - deb

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+# Monday - Labor Day
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+## Recollection
+- Watching too much youtube (approx. 1 hour)
+- Taking stuff from Deb
+	- This doesn't combat the underlying problem.
+		- Heal the relationship with her then pray that Christ heals her. Let him work on her and be the conduit as much as possible.
+			- Don't gatekeep.
+- Not being fully _cheerful_ around Deb
+
+Actions
+- [ ] Letter to Deb
+- [ ] letter to Joe Hyatt
+- [ ] Letter to Kristen
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Spiritual life
+
+##### PNs
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Cloudy, 39/60
+
+##### arise
+[-] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[-] Breastplate
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[N] Pack lunch
+[x] Matins
+
+##### workday
+
+[ ] deb
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Call with Hannah
+[ ] Lectio or Noelle
+	[ ] Amy - deb

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+# Tuesday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+##### Call w Noelle
+- [ ] Ask Fr Tom
+	- [ ] Curtains
+	- [x] Church Visit
+	- [x] Potluck
+- [ ] Kneeling Chair
+
+##### 
+
+We are MEANT to live in community. This is natural and not some crazy idea.
+It's better to have 2 or 3 families that you're close with than 100 that you aren't.
+"Calling things cheesy is a result of cynicism"
+
+## Recollection
+
+- Spent about 45 minutes watching youtube
+- didn't do my spiritual reading
+- Didn't eat particularly well
++ Did a kickass rock climbing route
++ Got marissa's thing done
++ Contributed well to sticks meeting
++ Made it through the day despite being tired
+
+It's a weird time back. There's so much to be done. I need the energy and focus to do it - and to do it well. LORD, grant me that.
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Spiritual life
+
+##### Misc
+- [ ] Letter to Deb
+- [ ] letter to Joe Hyatt
+- [ ] Letter to Kristen
+- [ ] Letter to Jay Johnson
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Cloudy, 39/60
+
+##### arise
+[x] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Breastplate
+[x] Intentions
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Pack lunch
+[x] Matins
+[x] Pack (labor) clothes
+
+##### workday
+
+[ ] Plan the day
+
+[->] press frame holes (80/20 profile mounting)
+
+[x] Explain table to John L
+[x] Mount linear slide / refine frame
+[ ] Vac table fillets
+[ ] Vac table FEA
+[ ] Vac pump valving
+[ ] Vac table top + screwing
+[ ] Checkin review with John L
+[ ] Vac pump cover
+[ ] split table in two (three?)
+
+[ ] Roller guiding sims
+	[ ] Kinematic
+	[ ] Dynamic
+
+- [ ] Vacuum blower seals
+- [ ] 
+
+[ ] Show intention to Systauto
+
+[ ] purchased parts datasheets
+
+[-x-] Vac table guys
+[-x-] Festo
+	- CAD?
+	- Multi-carriage?
+	- Sizing
+[->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] St John the Baptist Help
+[ ] MED plans
+[ ] MSP board meeting
+
+[ ] Compline
+[ ] Recollection

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+# Wednesday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+##### Write
+- [ ] Letter to Deb
+- [ ] letter to Joe Hyatt
+- [ ] Letter to Kristen
+- [ ] Letter to Jay Johnson
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 73/52
+
+##### arise
+
+[ ] Breastplate
+[ ] Intentions
+[ ] 15 mins mental prayer
+[ ] Matins
+
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[ ] Pack lunch - pbj + chs + veg
+
+##### workday
+
+[x] Roller dynamics
+
+[ ] Call vac table guys
+[x] Ball valve model
+
+[ ] purchased parts datasheets
+
+
+[->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] MED plans
+[ ] MSP board meeting
+
+[ ] Compline
+[ ] Recollection

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+# Thursday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 62/69
+
+##### arise
+
+[ ] Breastplate
+[ ] Intentions
+[ ] 15 mins mental prayer
+[ ] Matins
+
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Pack lunch
+
+##### workday
+[x] Pellet Trap
+
+[x] Lowpass filter
+[x] Mount blower etc.
+
+[ ] Force calcs
+
+
+Okay, you've played around with the design space. Now do so seriously. Make a proposal and make sure you can hit key performance parameters. You'll have to figure out what that looks like... definitely not straightforward
+
+[x] 1000 chkin w Fraser
+[x] 1100 weekly update w Oribi
+
+[?] what is the practical range of tapes - is 12" reasonable
+
+[->] Call SystAuto
+[->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Deb's washer
+
+[->] Sunday School Prep
+[->] MED Topics
+[x] Carpentry Class
+
+[ ] Letters
+[->] Board meeting schedule
+
+[ ] Cabin
+
+[ ] Compline
+[ ] Recollection

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+# Friday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+LORD, please help me. Help my stupid self.
+
+### Miles Armone
+
+Levels of work
+4- brackets, no knowledge learned
+3- by the hour but knowledge learned; exposure to new things, NO recurring revenue 
+2- capture long-run production (recurring revenue; more value of the work is captured)
+1- owned product;
+
+ReBuild desires 30% lv1/2 soon, 50% in 10yrs
+
+Invest in trade secrets, not patents - invest in process. The art is not public. 
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Rainy, 62/69
+
+##### arise
+
+[ ] Breastplate
+[ ] Intentions
+[ ] 15 mins mental prayer
+[ ] Matins
+
+[ ] Stretch - do your foot well!!!
+[x] Pack lunch
+
+- [ ] youtube-music-dl
+
+##### workday
+
+Okay, you've played around with the design space. Now do so seriously. Make a proposal and make sure you can hit key performance parameters. You'll have to figure out what that looks like... definitely not straightforward.
+- [x] Excel sheet for each
+	- [ ] linear 15
+	- [ ] grid 15
+	x
+	- [ ] gripper payload
+	- [ ] gripper+welder payload
+
+Let's stick with the linear, separated welder, FESTO slides.
+Next big question is ultrasonics.
+
+- [->] heaters (tempco)
+- [->] Ultrasonics
+- [->] Call SystAuto
+- [->] Track rollers (PCI)
+	- 9893406633
+
+
+##### evening
+[ ] Sunday School Prep
+[ ] MED Topics
+[ ] Letters
+[ ] Plan Saturday
+	[x] Food
+	[ ] Hiking
+[ ] Pack for Saturday
+
+[ ] Compline
+[ ] Recollection

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+# Friday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+LORD, please help me. Help my stupid self.
+
+### Miles Armone
+
+Levels of work
+4- brackets, no knowledge learned
+3- by the hour but knowledge learned; exposure to new things, NO recurring revenue 
+2- capture long-run production (recurring revenue; more value of the work is captured)
+1- owned product;
+
+ReBuild desires 30% lv1/2 soon, 50% in 10yrs
+
+Invest in trade secrets, not patents - invest in process. The art is not public. 
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+##### Weather Report
+	Sunny, 66/42
+	
+##### arise
+
+[ ] Breastplate
+[ ] Intentions
+[ ] 15 mins mental prayer
+[ ] Matins
+
+##### day
+
+- 0600 Depart from Manchester
+
+## Hiking options
+- Red Hill Fire Tower
+	- https://www.alltrails.com/explore/trail/us/new-hampshire/red-hill-fire-tower-loop-trail
+- Mount Pemigewasset (from Indian Head resort, or from flume) - 3mi
+- Artist Bluff Trail (1.5mi) (Bald Mtn)

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+# Monday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+> Build something that helps you do what you enjoy doing, but better. Or, build something your past self could have used to get where you are faster. Then, talk about who you are, what you do, and why it matters in public. That’s how you turn yourself into a business.
+
+
+You gotta have purpose. You gotta do the self-authoring. Stop floating around. Design your life. You've been given some 16 hours of fluff time. Now use them well. Don't dink around. Do a little bit of catch-up work in the mornings but the afternoons in the next few days can be directed towards repurposing your life.
+
+Exercise more, too. When you're feeling brain fog, go for a run or ride. Get acclimated to the cold - be your own furnace.
+
+- [ ] What can I do to improve my circulation?
+- [ ] Gift self-authoring program to Jonathan
+- [ ] 
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+## Weather Report
+	Sunny, 66/42
+	
+## Arise
+
+[x] Breastplate
+[x] Intentions
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Matins
+
+## Work
+
+
+
+[x] Call ultrasonic welder guys
+[->] Call vacuum table guys
+[->] Update to 50:1 gearbox
+[ ] Datasheets for CAD models
+
+[x] Mount heaters in roller assy
+[ ] Reaching out to vendors, starting to spec out actuators and ultrasonic welders
+
+[x] Sticks checkin
+
+[x] Simulation training
+
+[x] MED 
+[ ] Self-Authoring
+
+## Evening
+
+- [ ] Fix drawer
+- [ ] Rehang pots/pans
+- [ ] Fix sunglasses
+- [ ] 
+
+- [ ] Deb?

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+# Tuesday
+## Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+## Recollection
+
+# Brass Tacks
+
+## Weather Report
+	Sunny, 62/34
+	
+## Arise
+
+[x] Breastplate
+[x] Intentions
+[x] 15 mins mental prayer
+[x] Matins
+
+## Work
+
+
+[->] Call vacuum table guys
+
+[x] Call ultrasonic welder guys
+[x] Update to 50:1 gearbox
+[ ] Datasheets for CAD models
+
+[x] Timing study
+[ ] Gantry cartoon
+[ ] 
+
+
+[ ] Self-Authoring
+
+## Evening
+
+- [ ] Fix drawer
+- [ ] Rehang pots/pans
+- [ ] Fix sunglasses
+- [ ] 
+
+- [ ] Deb?

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+
+# Meditations and Idea Capture
+Last night's discussion with Raul was pretty cool. The spirit is working wtihin my life when I am attentive to God's will. When I desire that which exudes virtue rather than that which is grandiose. When I desire something that is good for its own sake and for God's rather than my own grandeur.
+
+I  face a lot of temptations from 'influencer' types who are trying to sell an easy life or something. But there are those who are right and have a point. There is stuff to be gleamed.
+- It's important to have a personality - a particularity - to what you do. This has the added benefit of preventing things from scaling too much, but more than that, it ensures that your value is legitimate and makes your business interactions all the more lovely. The creative process is necessarially personal and particular. "A world with 8 billion monopolies" - not that crazy, actually. The common person owning capital would lead to a world of owner-operators rather than centralizing.
+- Consider the unique place you find yourself in and how it can be offered for your fellow man and God.
+- Don't worry about it being sexy.
+- 
+
+Raul has a pretty decent - albeit nebulous - idea of building a sort of consortium for catholic creators.
+
+Dan Koe has some interesting stuff. I'm going to dig at that a little more and really think about it. 
+
+# Todo
+
+## Work
+
+- [x] Training
+
+- [x] Detail vacuum table & send to atlantic / systematic for requote
+- [ ] Design hold-down for shears
+- [x] BOM
+	- [ ] ebox
+- [ ] IO list to Naveed
+
+- [->] Schedule PDR
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] Vote
+- [ ] Pick up parts, maybe do lathing
+- [ ] Jordan Easley @ 0630
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+- [ ] Self-authoring
+- [ ] Examination of Conscience
+- [->] Edit Raul's stuff
+- [->] Prep makerspace minutes
+- [->] Call for nominations again (email)
+- [ ] Amazon Return + Cartridge (UPS)
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Interview with Raul
+- [ ] Practice Lathe
+- [ ] Thanksgiving plans
+	- [ ] Airport transit
+	- [ ] Call mom again & talk more
+	- [ ] Lodging
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+
+# Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+- [ ] Rewatch
+	- [ ] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHGvsDGj1SI&t=925s
+		- The problem being solved at the personal level is also being solved at the collective level; your personal contribution is valuable to that
+		- Problem-solving (and thus $) and purpose go hand in hand; they are not juxtaposed
+		- What is the big problem you want to solve in the world?
+			- This is not an easy question to answer... takes time
+		- What is the big problem you want to solve in your life?
+			- Often the SAME PROBLEM as the global one
+				- Yup that's peterson
+		- If you can solve the problem at your own level you can solve it at a larger level, and thus, you can solve it globally.
+		- Re-read the books that changed your worldview
+		- If you feel the urge to tell people what you're learning, you're on the right path.
+		- Your core purpose is layered over by conditioning.
+		- Take a challenge that is at your limit
+		- If you don't know what to pursue, see Maslow's heirarchy of needs
+			- Self-actualization is the most important
+		- Adopt a writing habit
+			- The base foundation for people that do what they enjoy is writing
+		- This is very similar to what [[Fr rip]] was saying in that what God often has oyu here for is to overcome a vice/temptation you're having
+		- 7 days to genius
+		- Writing helps you solidify and keep what you're thinking down - LINEARLY
+		- Write publicly in a public journal
+		- People want your unique perspective
+		- "company of one" - you can make ethical money doing what you enjoy
+		- EMAIL LIST - NOT SOCIAL MEDIA
+		- Make all of the information going into your head aligned with your goals
+		- Persuasion is good; study copywriting
+	- [ ] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgXAQDTa3dA&t=1189s
+		- "The internet enables 8 million monopolies"
+		- Success is counterintuitive; go in the opposite direction as most people say
+		- Eternal markets: health, wealth, relationships, happiness
+		- Building the audience along the way makes clients come to you
+		- You want to learn more once oyu identify a problem
+	- [ ] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuFjY1MV4LM
+
+So re: personal branding and build in open
+"Tools for Theosis"
+- Blog on LinkedIn, machinae-ex-deo, and an independent substack
+
+
+Man I can already feel content ideas: "the pause button"... etc.
+People are really saying great things about https://www.justinwelsh.me/the-content-os#section-1645726702391 ... it looks simple enough and perhaps worth doing. I definitely get the idea of what's going on in the whole course sphere. Definitely interesting and definitely a bandwagon I could hop on. There is something beautiful here and not just alluring.
+
+# Todo
+
+## Work
+
+- [ ] Training
+	- [->] Edit Raul's stuff
+	- [->] Prep makerspace minutes
+
+- [ ] Design hold-down for shears
+- [ ] ebox
+- [ ] IO list to Naveed
+
+- [->] Schedule PDR
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] Vote
+- [ ] Pick up parts, maybe do lathing
+- [ ] Jordan Easley @ 0630
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+- [ ] Self-authoring
+- [ ] Examination of Conscience
+- [ ] Amazon Return + Cartridge (UPS)
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Interview with Raul
+- [ ] Practice Lathe
+- [ ] Thanksgiving plans
+	- [ ] Airport transit
+	- [ ] Call mom again & talk more
+	- [ ] Lodging
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+
+# Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+"Tools for Theosis" - yea or nay?
+
+Mulling this over for extended periods of time, I'm worrying about it. So I'm going to punt on it and not worry. Instead, I'll pray.
+
+LORD, things are falling down around me. Help me to do what I need to do, to not be distracted by shiny things, to instead focus on what you ask of me every second to every second.
+
+"What would you build if you were guarunteed success but had to spend 25+ years building it?"
+
+#### SACRED
+"What is sacred to you?"
+Where the transcendent meets the mundane
+
+
+#####
+You aren't going to solve all the world's problems.
+But that doesn't mean you can't solve some of them.
+Run the race! There's nothing more exciting than that! What is it that you're passionate about?
+
+# Todo
+
+## Work
+
+- [x] Training
+	- [x] Edit Raul's stuff - first pass
+	- [x] Prep makerspace minutes
+	- [x] Check up on insurance
+	- [x] Amy Green
+
+- [->] Schedule PDR
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] EOC
+- [ ] Edit Raul
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+- [ ] Self-authoring
+- [ ] Examination of Conscience
+- [ ] Amazon Return + Cartridge (UPS)
+- [ ] 
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Interview with Raul
+- [ ] Practice Lathe
+- [ ] Thanksgiving plans
+	- [ ] Airport transit
+	- [ ] Call mom again & talk more
+	- [ ] Lodging
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+
+# Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+
+# Todo
+
+## Work
+
+- [ ] Training
+	- [ ] Makerspace Fee Increase
+	- [ ] Makerspace Call 4H Lady
+	- [ ] Makerspace buy fans
+	- [ ] Makerspace insurance call
+	- [ ] Makerspace stairwell update
+
+- [->] Schedule PDR
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] EOC
+- [ ] Edit Raul
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+- [ ] Self-authoring
+- [ ] Examination of Conscience
+- [ ] Amazon Return + Cartridge (UPS)
+- [ ] 
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Interview with Raul
+- [ ] Practice Lathe
+- [ ] Thanksgiving plans
+	- [ ] Airport transit
+	- [ ] Call mom again & talk more
+	- [ ] Lodging
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+
+
+
+# Meditations and Idea Capture
+
+Physical Rest Score: 16  
+Mental Rest Score: 26  
+Emotional Rest Score: 31  
+Spiritual Rest Score: 19  
+Social Rest Score: 18  
+Sensory Rest Score: 19  
+Creative Rest Score: 30
+
+##### Prescription
+Holy butt i didn't realize how emotionally / creatively exhausted I am
+
+###### Emotionally
+Be more vulnerable with my brothers - be more honest about what you're trying to do.
+
+###### Creatively
+A writing habit would help - and refinding my muse. 
+
+Getting the personal brand would be key. Let's not worry overmuch about that but let's still do it
+- [ ] Learn some writing frameworks
+- [ ] Start writing (put it on machinaeexdeo.com for now is fine with a crosspost)
+- [ ] Update the headshot + refine the linkedin
+- Pray more, man. Just be with God. Take some adoration time with Noelle, too, on Sundays or long days where you aren't sure what to do.
+
+I retook this morning and
+**Category Scores**  
+Physical Rest Score: 10  
+Mental Rest Score: 17  
+Emotional Rest Score: 21  
+Spiritual Rest Score: 17  
+Social Rest Score: 16  
+Sensory Rest Score: 15  
+Creative Rest Score: 21
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+Demotivated. Why am I doing what I'm doing?
+To bring glory to God.
+How can I bring glory to him right now?
+By doing forthright and doing what I said I'm going to do.
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+
+The thing I need most right now is clarity - this is something that can be practiced, largely by simply being forthright with my speech. Talking to people. being open and honest. To that effect, getting the blog going will be a good idea. There are things to talk about - through they do not need to be particularly profound. 
+
+"Pause button" is a really interesting topic for me. Freezing something in place to better analyze it. "Can you push pause on your life - for a moment?"
+
+Actionable tomorrow:
+ - [ ] Get a working (hidden, not published) thesis
+ - [ ] Study *one* effectual LinkedIn poster
+ - [ ] Write at least *one* post in their style
+
+Prompts:
+- A challenge that was overcome and how you overcome it was deifying
+- A particular design revealing something more fundamental about the structure of the world
+- A learning moment in your day that helped you grow closer to God
+- A use of a technology that is really positive
+	- Misuses are OK, but should not be a focus - don't start here
+		- A way to tech fast is a positive
+
+This is such a wonderful way to advance in virtues - clarity and thankfulness most notably.
+
+# Todo
+
+## Work
+
+- [x] Training
+	- [x] Send videos to Raul
+	- [x] Check up on Deb
+	- [x] Nonstick cutting fluid
+	- [x] Makerspace insurance
+		- [x] Talk to ms ppl
+		- [x] Compile summary of desired coverage
+		- [x] Cross
+		- [x] American National
+		- [x] Others
+	- [->] Schedule next woodwork class
+	- [x] Reach out to UNH lady
+	- [x] Order autobay fan components
+	- [x] Makerspace stairwell update
+
+- [x] Schedule Concept Review
+- [x] Bladder Closure Discussion
+- [x] Finish Hold-Down
+- [ ] P/Ns
+- [x] Vacuum Table Call
+	- Revise to say Aluminum
+	- Add ISO view
+	- Sticking with the 1 1/2" thick, 1/8" thick tops and bottom
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] Makerspace fee structure analysis
+- [x] Buy cleaning supplies
+	- [x] Toilet paper
+	- [x] Box of rectangular paper towels
+	- [x] Kitchen paper towels
+	- [x] Stripper
+- [ ] Find out size of towel rolls
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+- [ ] Amazon returns
+- [ ] Call parents
+- [ ] Learn how to use a hand plane
+- [ ] Autobay fan mount
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+- [ ] Self-authoring
+- [ ] Examination of Conscience
+- [ ] Amazon Return + Cartridge (UPS)
+- [ ] 
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Interview with Raul
+- [ ] Practice Lathe
+- [ ] Thanksgiving plans
+	- [ ] Airport transit
+	- [ ] Call mom again & talk more
+	- [ ] Lodging
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+
+
+
+# Idea Capture
+
+My days are getting jacked up here - I think it's OK now.
+
+I'm in a stable position at work. So the normal thing would be to continue there. And that's fine. It's good pay. But talents. They need invested.
+
+Looking forwards, what do I give a damn about, and what will help the world be better?
+- Intermediate technology
+- Regenerative ag
+- Overall, organic development as opposed to synthetic
+
+Now, one has to be proper and not a romantic - and go after that which presents itself as legitimate opportunity and not idyllic. I don't think there's really an awful lot that's of value in hand-tool building over power-tool building, other than the prepper aspect (which is something).
+
+
+
+# Todo
+
+## Ready
+- [x] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+
+## Work
+
+- [x] Layup Review
+- [x] Training
+	- [x] MS insurance
+	- [x] MS fee analysis
+	- [x] trashbags
+	- [x] T4T start
+		- [x] SHARPENING!!!
+
+- [-> EOW] Schedule Concept Review
+- [ ] P/Ns
+- [x] Finish detailing shear
+- [ ] Motor selection
+
+PNP & 24vdc
+- homes should be NO
+- M8/M12, hardwire where needed
+- Absolute
+	- Home sensors should be mounted to rest of system
+	- Omron X2S (bats proof of concept) EE-SX67-WR
+- Vacuum sensor - 24VDC PNP NO
+- Try to reuse thermocouples, if not NBD - **J-type** or K-type 
+- Can we get a 480v blower?
+
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4 (if ok)
+
+## Evening
+- [ ] $448.30 to Jackson for Utilities
+- [ ] Write T&T
+- [x] Drop stuff off at the space
+- [x] Learn mortising tool
+- [-] Sharpen & learn hand planes
+- [x] Autobay fan mount
+- [x] Find size of towel rolls - and then order
+- [ ] Listen to MED ep4
+
+## Extras / ongoing
+
+
+##### Low-priority
+- [->] Fix sunglasses
+- [->] 401(k)
+- [->] KofC - join local council
+- [ ] ytm-bs4
+- [ ] Send some messages to some people on linkedin who are doing things you're interested in even if vaguely
+	- [ ] Paul Greive (pasturebird)

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+wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhat the hell
+
+I'm miffed.
+Why am I here doing this?
+Father please hear me.
+Christ hear me.
+Spirit hear me.
+Come, Holy Sprit.
+Help me to bear open my heart and to look at it and understand it.
+
+I'm so miffed. I've left a life that I once loved.
+Okay be honest. You loved it for about a year and change. You liked Caspian summers. That's all. Maybe a few moments here and there. But overall. Mid.
+
+I hear this more and more recently. Be at the gate. Go up to it. Be in the world. But it just irritates me. Because the world is building things stupidly and at the most fundamental level. It's just bandaids. I don't do bandaids.
+
+Paul told me not to make bandaids. I don't know if he meant that as an exemplar or as a class of problem.
+
+But it speaks to my style. What I do is fundamental overhauls. I rip out the guts and put in fresh. Proper. Beautiful. You don't do that at the gates though except by invasion.
+
+God, I'm looking for something.
+
+	We will do the same and greater works than Jesus
+	A whole body that will do this
+	We will not come up with greater thinking, talking, etc. than Jesus...
+
+How much of my misery has been from envy? from lust for power? rather than true submission? rather than pretend submission, but still ultimately - I rely on my savings
+
+Do what he tells you usually ends up being
+	Go and make disciples of the world
+
+Can I just shut up
+If I just do a simple task for a while
+And shut up
+Will I be happier?
+Clearer minded?
+Not difukus?
+Not difukus...
+
+	 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
+
+	And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.
+
+	You need a revelation of Jesus.

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+# 2024-01-30

Archive/Journal/2024-01-31.md

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+# 2024-01-31
+
+## Vent - *All of it, out!*
+What a good day!
+I learned a good bit at the seminar
+I got a library card
+I called the SWXVAR
+I met with Niko
+- and might fix the YA group
+- and might take a tour of his PCB fab place
+I met Thomas (wild right)
+
+## Obligations - *list, then prioritize, and set the bare minimum*
+- Finish auger mover prototype
+- Send asks to farmers
+- Clarify my TH Fab situation
+
+## Mindset - *Tools: Reframe, Possibility, Inversion, Perspective, Discipline*
+
+## Ideate - *Make 30 answers in 5 minutes! No editing til it's over*
+How can I keep from being so damn depressed all the time
+- Read a freaking book
+- Get higher quality sleep
+- Decorate more
+- Hang out with Grandpa more
+- Call Grandpa more
+- Get a spiritual director
+- Keep journaling
+- Get better (instrumental) music
+- Surround yourself with interesting people
+
+## Trajectory - *What's the evidence for your goals - and what will you do? What are the hidden metrics?*
+I am [holy] because:
+- I made honest but receptive conversation
+- I did not shy away from asking Thomas about mass
+- I had an openness to meeting people and doing things today, with Niko, with MJ, with Tom, with Thomas
+
+(and i am not - because I didn't exercise, or read the gospel)
+
+## WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
+- read gospels on the way to Pontiac
+- PTI
+- doing my exercise in the middle of the day after PTI
+- finishing auger mover
+- plan TH Fab work
+- writing down what I need to talk to Jon about
+- trying alibre

Archive/Journal/2024-02-02.md

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+# 2024-02-02
+
+## Vent - *All of it, out!*
+Spring is coming - what are my plans? Can we do any different practices or plots or trials?
+Or do I just wait? Keep learning, and figure it out then. Get animals, and figure it out then.
+I suppose, I don't really know what I want to try yet. Will I find it by pushing harder? Maybe yes, maybe no.
+Gotta approach Jon right - be honest, be open, but be forward. He will help you - he wants to help you help him.
+Video more with my hands, video more in the shop, use the good camera more because by golly it's good
+
+
+## Obligations - *list, then prioritize, and set the bare minimum*
+- Follow up with Jon
+- Prep sunday school
+- Prep men's group - lent begins soon! Talk to Joe
+- Clean up the shop
+- Get light fixtures fixed
+- Bring pushsticks and switch down to grandpa
+- Put SD card back in camera
+- Make air reel
+- Pick up steel from Pekin (call ahead is probably best)
+- Write rest of zine
+- Make video for zine #1
+	- A Pattern Language
+	- End booklet flop
+	- Find better example of bad: cartoon pull-the-lever factory, driving through suburbia
+	- Find example(s) of beauty: farming, craftsmen working together, cathedrals
+
+## Mindset - *Tools: Reframe, Possibility, Inversion, Perspective, Discipline*
+
+## Ideate - *Make 30 answers in 5 minutes! No editing til it's over*
+
+## Trajectory - *What's the evidence for your goals - and what will you do? What are the hidden metrics?*
+I am [running after Christ]: maybe not so much.
+
+I didn't even read the Gospel today.
+Let alone do so with my dad.
+Or exercise.
+Or enjoy the world that much.
+
+But I did get after doing video. And vetting alibre. That software is a blessing.
+
+## WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
+- 6:30 exercise; 200 R-T + 100 Lunges + Shower
+- Gospels w. Dad
+- text joe
+- prep sunday school
+- 9AM call Jon
+- Go up to see him
+- Clean up shop
+- Video recording (pattern language, zine flop)

Archive/Journal/2024-02-03.md

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+# 2024-02-03
+
+## Vent - *All of it, out!*
+
+## Obligations - *list, then prioritize, and set the bare minimum*
+
+## Mindset - *Tools: Reframe, Possibility, Inversion, Perspective, Discipline*
+
+## Ideate - *Make 30 answers in 5 minutes! No editing til it's over*
+
+## Trajectory - *What's the evidence for your goals - and what will you do? What are the hidden metrics?*
+
+## WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?

Archive/Journal/2024-02-12

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+# 12FEB2024

Archive/Journal/2024-02-16.md

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+Well, I'm disappointed I didn't find anyone I was looking for. BUT. I think I know why. The people I'm looking for are:
+- Too early in development to be at this show
+- Too unconventional/innovative to be at this show
+- Too niche to be at this show
+
+Where will I find the right people?
+
+Well, find out what shows pasturebird and the like go to - and go there!
+
+Opportunities you see:
+- can myocorhizae grow up to the top layers of soil and thus mitigate the impacts of stratification?
+- strip till
+
+- What can we grow instead of corn/beans?
+	- wheat
+- What compliments?
+	- what animal?
+
+- can an autonomous platform like 360Rain dosomething else?
+	- planting
+	- strip-till (this doesn't need to be timely)
+	- harvest - giant tube for combine offloading
+- we need a manbox
+- we could use a tire mover
+	- oooh neat idea with a winch
+- 
+
+a lot more unsatisfying answers than open-ended questions
+
+is the mechanical mind dim? unlit? do i need to cast it off? this is the question i have...
+
+# 100A farm
+goal: make a living off of 100 acres (1.5m) farming
+100a x $4/a x X = $200k -> X = 500 Bu/A ($2000/a)
+
+ok, well what if you grow organic?
+100a x $10/a x X = $200k -> X = 200 Bu/A ($2000/a)
+
+The premium makes it more attainable...
+
+spoonfeeding seems like the only possible way
+which like, okay...
+do you put it all under a 360Rain-type system?
+How do you do it without insane inputs?
+
+Crops
+- Mushrooms
+- Microgreens
+- Lavender
+- Goji Berries
+- Garlic: $1-2/lb x 15000 lb/A = $20,000 / A (wait... what!? that's crazy. also - 15,000 lb/A is on par with corn in tonnage)
+	- What varieties are not sold at farmer's markets?
+	- become THE LOCAL GARLIC GUY
+
+Find a CSA and fill their voids
+
+A bit of knowledge from farm simulator: "Never sell something that can be converted into something else"
+
+guys who say the small farm / gardening isn't real farming... well... they're making a good living, no?
+
+# THF
+- The check is in the mail... need to see if Net30 terms are OK
+- Slower is OK!
+- Do we need to grease?>>> 

Archive/Journal/2024.10.23 - 3 goals 1.md

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+In 90 seconds for each question:
+1. **What do you want to experience in life?**
+God's presence
+Harmony
+A deep sense of belonging
+Fellowship with people who see the truth of the world
+The most intimate of truths
+
+Real community, working together with people with shared vision and goals
+
+1. **How do you want to grow and develop yourself?**
+
+
+2. **How do you want to contribute to the world?**
+
+
+================
+
+These questions
+Seem
+Wrong
+I don't seem to want to answer them
+And the answers I have are... "Contentless". Abstract. Not concrete.
+(Cue text messages with Fr. Friedel)
+
+Resonance. That's probably the right way to approach it. What do you resonate with?
+- Ecological / holistic / top-level-design / architecture thinking
+- Getting to "the bottom" of things
+- Sitting with a problem, not rushing to solve it
+- Simplicity. Roughing it ifneedbe.
+- 
+
+What do you have consonance with?
+- Rote, exacting steps - even or especially if they're rhythmic
+
+These are perhaps the questions which are right:
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+2. How does God want you to grow and develop?
+3. How does God want you to contribute to the world?
+... And of course, much more difficult to ascertain. But.
+
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+Repentance. Metanoia. Change of heart. A taste of His ways. These are all necessary. (God is, of course, superabundant, and so He will have more...) Already:
+- Going back to confession
+- Quitting engineering
+
+Perhaps these questions are stages of life. And I am only in the first one yet still...
+
+God, I am here. Beckon your servant and send him forth. Or draw him nearer yet, that he may understand Your will. That I may perform great or small works, that I may direct myself, that I may grow into the being you would like to see, a part of yourself, a member of your glorious community, a member of your mystical body.
+I have identified myself as an "engineer" for a very long time. I pride myself on being a "jack of all trades". But when the pedal meets the metal. I cannot see myself as anything else. LORD GOD, Helpo me to see myself, to envision myself, to imagine myself, as you do - CAPAX UNIVERSI - may this permeate me. May this come over me in entirety. May I come through this and understand the purpose you have for me. 
+
+Perhaps the original framing is not so bad.
+
+1. What do I want to experience?
+The sunrise. Lambing. Growing trees. Developing land. Building a house. Working with friends. Working with people who "get it". Picking fruit. Eating food I raised.
+Maybe that is enough for tonight.

Archive/Journal/2024.10.23 - 3 goals 2.md

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+In 90 seconds for each question:
+1. **What do you want to experience in life?**
+God's presence
+Harmony
+A deep sense of belonging
+Fellowship with people who see the truth of the world
+The most intimate of truths
+
+Real community, working together with people with shared vision and goals
+
+1. **How do you want to grow and develop yourself?**
+
+
+2. **How do you want to contribute to the world?**
+
+
+================
+
+These questions
+Seem
+Wrong
+I don't seem to want to answer them
+And the answers I have are... "Contentless". Abstract. Not concrete.
+(Cue text messages with Fr. Friedel)
+
+Resonance. That's probably the right way to approach it. What do you resonate with?
+- Ecological / holistic / top-level-design / architecture thinking
+- Getting to "the bottom" of things
+- Sitting with a problem, not rushing to solve it
+- Simplicity. Roughing it ifneedbe.
+- 
+
+What do you have consonance with?
+- Rote, exacting steps - even or especially if they're rhythmic
+
+These are perhaps the questions which are right:
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+2. How does God want you to grow and develop?
+3. How does God want you to contribute to the world?
+... And of course, much more difficult to ascertain. But.
+
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+Repentance. Metanoia. Change of heart. A taste of His ways. These are all necessary. (God is, of course, superabundant, and so He will have more...) Already:
+- Going back to confession
+- Quitting engineering
+
+Perhaps these questions are stages of life. And I am only in the first one yet still...
+
+God, I am here. Beckon your servant and send him forth. Or draw him nearer yet, that he may understand Your will. That I may perform great or small works, that I may direct myself, that I may grow into the being you would like to see, a part of yourself, a member of your glorious community, a member of your mystical body.
+I have identified myself as an "engineer" for a very long time. I pride myself on being a "jack of all trades". But when the pedal meets the metal. I cannot see myself as anything else. LORD GOD, Helpo me to see myself, to envision myself, to imagine myself, as you do - CAPAX UNIVERSI - may this permeate me. May this come over me in entirety. May I come through this and understand the purpose you have for me. 
+
+Perhaps the original framing is not so bad.
+
+1. What do I want to experience?
+The sunrise. Lambing. Growing trees. Developing land. Building a house. Working with friends. Working with people who "get it". Picking fruit. Eating food I raised.
+Maybe that is enough for tonight.

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+In 90 seconds for each question:
+1. **What do you want to experience in life?**
+God's presence
+Harmony
+A deep sense of belonging
+Fellowship with people who see the truth of the world
+The most intimate of truths
+
+Real community, working together with people with shared vision and goals
+
+1. **How do you want to grow and develop yourself?**
+
+
+2. **How do you want to contribute to the world?**
+
+
+================
+
+These questions
+Seem
+Wrong
+I don't seem to want to answer them
+And the answers I have are... "Contentless". Abstract. Not concrete.
+(Cue text messages with Fr. Friedel)
+
+Resonance. That's probably the right way to approach it. What do you resonate with?
+- Ecological / holistic / top-level-design / architecture thinking
+- Getting to "the bottom" of things
+- Sitting with a problem, not rushing to solve it
+- Simplicity. Roughing it ifneedbe.
+- 
+
+What do you have consonance with?
+- Rote, exacting steps - even or especially if they're rhythmic
+
+These are perhaps the questions which are right:
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+2. How does God want you to grow and develop?
+3. How does God want you to contribute to the world?
+... And of course, much more difficult to ascertain. But.
+
+1. What does God want you to experience in this life?
+Repentance. Metanoia. Change of heart. A taste of His ways. These are all necessary. (God is, of course, superabundant, and so He will have more...) Already:
+- Going back to confession
+- Quitting engineering
+
+Perhaps these questions are stages of life. And I am only in the first one yet still...
+
+God, I am here. Beckon your servant and send him forth. Or draw him nearer yet, that he may understand Your will. That I may perform great or small works, that I may direct myself, that I may grow into the being you would like to see, a part of yourself, a member of your glorious community, a member of your mystical body.
+I have identified myself as an "engineer" for a very long time. I pride myself on being a "jack of all trades". But when the pedal meets the metal. I cannot see myself as anything else. LORD GOD, Helpo me to see myself, to envision myself, to imagine myself, as you do - CAPAX UNIVERSI - may this permeate me. May this come over me in entirety. May I come through this and understand the purpose you have for me. 
+
+Perhaps the original framing is not so bad.
+
+1. What do I want to experience?
+The sunrise. Lambing. Growing trees. Developing land. Building a house. Working with friends. Working with people who "get it". Picking fruit. Eating food I raised.
+Maybe that is enough for tonight.

Archive/Journal/2024.10.24 1.md

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+cleaned up my room.
+lots of thoughts storming around up here in the noggin
+- sheepmobile / sheep tractors: can they be low cost? Can they be appropriate tech? Can they be SELF PROPELLED SOMEHOW!? That would be wicked awesome if the sheep could move themselves (it sounds almost silly)
+- can sap analysis be done on a low-cost decentralized basis?
+	- does a living tissue test tell you similar info?
+- garden design company; come in, design a garden for you to tend and keep. wouldn't that be nifty?
+- responsibilities and loose ends:
+	- spiritual warfar e graphic
+	- popcorn picking sunday?
+	- amazon returns
+	- codify receipts for mom
+	- check discord
+	- send ask to new guy mxd
+	- cleaan up office
+
+
+## 2. How do you want to contribute to the world?
+
+I want to open people's eyes to reality.
+
+======
+
+That's a weird answer. I mean, these things came to mind:
+- make good technology
+- make good equipment and machines
+- grow good food
+
+but like honestly
+most problems people have are all inside their heads
+all my problems are too really
+i have made cool things
+i have made good things
+i have made helpful things even
+and yet whenever I walk away
+it's still like... shit. they're still wacked up.
+
+I want to solve the conundrum
+or at least work out the problem
+of how to live as God intended
+with technology?
+or just
+simply
+how to live as God intended...

Archive/Journal/2024.10.24 2.md

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+cleaned up my room.
+lots of thoughts storming around up here in the noggin
+- sheepmobile / sheep tractors: can they be low cost? Can they be appropriate tech? Can they be SELF PROPELLED SOMEHOW!? That would be wicked awesome if the sheep could move themselves (it sounds almost silly)
+- can sap analysis be done on a low-cost decentralized basis?
+	- does a living tissue test tell you similar info?
+- garden design company; come in, design a garden for you to tend and keep. wouldn't that be nifty?
+- responsibilities and loose ends:
+	- spiritual warfar e graphic
+	- popcorn picking sunday?
+	- amazon returns
+	- codify receipts for mom
+	- check discord
+	- send ask to new guy mxd
+	- cleaan up office
+
+
+## 2. How do you want to contribute to the world?
+
+I want to open people's eyes to reality.
+
+======
+
+That's a weird answer. I mean, these things came to mind:
+- make good technology
+- make good equipment and machines
+- grow good food
+
+but like honestly
+most problems people have are all inside their heads
+all my problems are too really
+i have made cool things
+i have made good things
+i have made helpful things even
+and yet whenever I walk away
+it's still like... shit. they're still wacked up.
+
+I want to solve the conundrum
+or at least work out the problem
+of how to live as God intended
+with technology?
+or just
+simply
+how to live as God intended...

Archive/Journal/2024.10.24.md

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+cleaned up my room.
+lots of thoughts storming around up here in the noggin
+- sheepmobile / sheep tractors: can they be low cost? Can they be appropriate tech? Can they be SELF PROPELLED SOMEHOW!? That would be wicked awesome if the sheep could move themselves (it sounds almost silly)
+- can sap analysis be done on a low-cost decentralized basis?
+	- does a living tissue test tell you similar info?
+- garden design company; come in, design a garden for you to tend and keep. wouldn't that be nifty?
+- responsibilities and loose ends:
+	- spiritual warfar e graphic
+	- popcorn picking sunday?
+	- amazon returns
+	- codify receipts for mom
+	- check discord
+	- send ask to new guy mxd
+	- cleaan up office
+
+
+## 2. How do you want to contribute to the world?
+
+I want to open people's eyes to reality.
+
+======
+
+That's a weird answer. I mean, these things came to mind:
+- make good technology
+- make good equipment and machines
+- grow good food
+
+but like honestly
+most problems people have are all inside their heads
+all my problems are too really
+i have made cool things
+i have made good things
+i have made helpful things even
+and yet whenever I walk away
+it's still like... shit. they're still wacked up.
+
+I want to solve the conundrum
+or at least work out the problem
+of how to live as God intended
+with technology?
+or just
+simply
+how to live as God intended...

Archive/Journal/2024.10.28 - death to the flesh 1.md

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+I have succumbed to the desires of the flesh and have paid the price dearly for it. My health his not optimal. I have headache. General dis-ease. Not full health. I ate breakfast. I ate late. I ate carbohydrates. I ate refined sugar. In the prior week, even alcohol. All of these I know are abuses of the flesh. They are responses to its frailty, to its immediate fleeting whims. Not to its real needs and desires.
+
+Idea: when I am woken, pray a decade of the rosary. Get bearings. "Wake up" truly, but easily, so you can assess whether or not you need more sleep.
+
+I look at this and wonder as well
+how much this applies
+to the decisions in life
+to the conversations I need have
+with my father
+oranyoneone else
+to the decisions i must make
+as it is much more comfortable
+in the short term
+to not
+make
+any
+
+I constantly
+do
+this
+

Archive/Journal/2024.10.28 - death to the flesh 2.md

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+I have succumbed to the desires of the flesh and have paid the price dearly for it. My health his not optimal. I have headache. General dis-ease. Not full health. I ate breakfast. I ate late. I ate carbohydrates. I ate refined sugar. In the prior week, even alcohol. All of these I know are abuses of the flesh. They are responses to its frailty, to its immediate fleeting whims. Not to its real needs and desires.
+
+Idea: when I am woken, pray a decade of the rosary. Get bearings. "Wake up" truly, but easily, so you can assess whether or not you need more sleep.
+
+I look at this and wonder as well
+how much this applies
+to the decisions in life
+to the conversations I need have
+with my father
+oranyoneone else
+to the decisions i must make
+as it is much more comfortable
+in the short term
+to not
+make
+any
+
+I constantly
+do
+this
+

Archive/Journal/2024.10.28 - death to the flesh.md

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+I have succumbed to the desires of the flesh and have paid the price dearly for it. My health his not optimal. I have headache. General dis-ease. Not full health. I ate breakfast. I ate late. I ate carbohydrates. I ate refined sugar. In the prior week, even alcohol. All of these I know are abuses of the flesh. They are responses to its frailty, to its immediate fleeting whims. Not to its real needs and desires.
+
+Idea: when I am woken, pray a decade of the rosary. Get bearings. "Wake up" truly, but easily, so you can assess whether or not you need more sleep.
+
+I look at this and wonder as well
+how much this applies
+to the decisions in life
+to the conversations I need have
+with my father
+oranyoneone else
+to the decisions i must make
+as it is much more comfortable
+in the short term
+to not
+make
+any
+
+I constantly
+do
+this
+

Archive/Journal/2024.10.29 1.md

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+So
+much
+political
+noise
+
+so much hope and optimizsm though
+I have never seen so much
+it's kinda wild

Archive/Journal/2024.10.29 2.md

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+So
+much
+political
+noise
+
+so much hope and optimizsm though
+I have never seen so much
+it's kinda wild