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 	- [ ] what I think I should do, what the future could look like, how to ride it
 - [ ] Listen to Anxiety
 - [ ] Read SC agreement 
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+=======
+
+https://substack.com/home/post/p-171966411
+# Journaling
+
+	People create their problems by having the wrong attitude before God.
+
+I have been given the gift of some time here in the afternoon on a sunny Tuesday in the middle of harvest. Thank you.
+
+### Repentance
+
+Lord, I repent of sentimentalism. Of looking for right feelings. Of trying to feel my way into the right course of action. The emotions are calls for investigation. They are not investigation. I repent that I have misused them.
+
+That doesn't mean they should be disregarded. In fact I have disregarded them in many ways.
+
+### Raw gut feelings
+
+Here are some raw gut feelings I have. They may or may not be accurate.
+1. The farm is really disordered. It is too big. It is too empty. We run too hard during harvest.
+2. My father is not well-equipped to manage a work crew.
+3. Stock Cropper is not a very good idea as it currently exists. If it is to exist it needs a drastic tech scale-back.
+	1. A tech scale-back in a tech company? This is weird. It may be right and just but it raises fundamental questions.
+	2. Animals need space to roam.
+	3. What is the goal here? What are we trying to serve? What are we trying to do?
+	4. Is the noncompete OK?
+4. I am ordering so much stuff from Amazon and other outside entities in general. It takes a lot of tools to make things work around here.
+5. Do I just need to directly work to make a living / help those around me?
+	1. can it be the farm?
+	2. can it be engineering stuff?
+	3. it can't be this grain farming nonsense
+6. Am I going to need to leave here?
+	1. I am not really tethered still
+	2. But I still feel somewhat responsible for my family. They are a mess.
+7. Are my talents of more use ecclesially? Particularly, taste, intellect, virtue
+8. Sheep aren't gaining like they ought to be.
+9. I'm not helping THF like I ought to be.
+10. I'm stretched thin.
+11. I have no social life right now.
+12. My social prospects are not well.
+13. Everything is becoming fake.
+14. We need to solve real problems, not move deck chairs. What are the real problems?
+	1. Lack of togetherness
+	2. Lack of good food
+	3. Lack of good work
+	4. Lack of good spaces
+	5. Food. Work. Spaces. Music and liturgy too. But food. Work. Spaces. These are the basics.
+15. Ousett's *Action* is convicting. 
+
+### The pressing questions
+1. Do I take the SC agreement, or leave it?
+2. Do I move out of the house (either to Joyce, or Kathy's)?
+3. What do I need to focus on?
+
+### What is the most impressive/important angle?
+Item 14 above. Solve real problems, don't move deck chairs. Quality food, work, spaces. How to get here?
+##### A direct approach - same place, different focus?
+- Move more acreage over to livestock production
+- Build a house - no, build several houses - build a neighborhood
+##### The things that are in front of me
+- Build up StockCropper
+- Use that tech to convert acreage to livestock production
+##### I feel like I need better options.
+
+	The room holds us, but sometimes, that’s not why we stay. We actually stay because we don’t yet know how to live without its framing.
+
+I don't need to solve everything now
+But I also shouldn't make excuses...
+
+Make no compromise with evil
+
+### Listing perspectives
+- You SHOULD - it has been presented to you
+- You SHOULD - it is a way to knit your talents with the right direction
+- You SHOULD NOT - it is not really the endpoint; it is too technologically complicated
+- You SHOULD NOT - it is not a shape of work that you can pass on
+- You SHOULD NOT - it is not social enough
+- You SHOULD - there can be other fruits that come of this
+- You SHOULD - it is a way to grow in knowledge and ability to make things
+- You SHOULD NOT - you need to be invested and in the driver's seat
+- You SHOULD NOT - you are too geographically decentered
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-People create their problems by having the wrong attitude before God.